This Friday was definitely better than last! It isn't over yet and I don't want to jinx it so that is all I am going to say about that!
Watching The Family Guy right now and waiting for my family guy to get home from his soccer game. I didn't attend tonight's game. I know, I know bad wifey, but I just couldn't do it tonight. This has been an incredibly long week at work and I just wanted to chill at home tonight.
I have a stuffy nose tonight. I sneezed all day today. At least the sneezing has stopped.
I went grocery shopping tonight and actually STUCK TO THE LIST!!! Amazing!
In a short time I will be heading to bed to read a bit.
Late yesterday afternoon, the kids and I went for a nice walk on the beach and in and around an old abandoned old stone cottage on the far end of the beach. I have lots of pics. Not sure when I will post them. Soon.
Time to read.
Friday, October 03, 2008
Thursday, October 02, 2008
Ewwww! Gross!
If the link doesn't show up, the story is at http://www.wptz.com/news/17539127/detail.html
Disgusting! I would prefer not thinking about all the types of women this breast milk could come from. Unless the women want to live on a "farm" where they are forced to eat healthy foods, no smoking, drinking, doing drugs, drinking caffeine, or even having sex because yea, germs can enter the body that way and be passed on through breast milk...then I guess this is one bus I will not be getting on!
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
October 1, 2008
I have tomorrow off. So grateful for that! I am going to clean the house, go to the post office, go to the library and try and just enjoy chilling out before it is back to the grind!
Right now I am waiting for Mitch to get home from work. I think I will take a relaxing bath before bedtime.
Happy October everyone!!! I love this month. After Halloween, the months zip right by...next thing you know, it will be February!
Right now I am waiting for Mitch to get home from work. I think I will take a relaxing bath before bedtime.
Happy October everyone!!! I love this month. After Halloween, the months zip right by...next thing you know, it will be February!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
September 30, 2008
Today went by very fast, however, I got absolutely ZERO sleep last night. It was crazy. It was a productive day at work for me and at least two people. We had a great time even though most everyone was at the funeral. I think Roger would have preferred us having a great time than being sad and miserable. I would have liked to have gone to pay my respects, but some people felt it necessary that they attend, even though they didn't really know him, which was frustrating, because I had a nice friendship with him, but some of us had to stay behind and run the show. And really I got to spend more time with him on the Friday of his death than my usual, and I feel that is more important.
On a brighter note, Zach had a football game tonight. We are just getting back. I am feeling kinda guilty. I attend the games. I support my baby in all that he does, yet I am not one of those "crazy" parents, wearing their kids jersey and having tailgate parties...I mean COME ON! Are you kidding me? Yet a part of me feels guilty because maybe I should be like that? I am proud of him in so many ways above and so beyond football. I go because he's asked me to go.
Weird. I haven't heard the song "Raindrops Keep Falling on my Head" since I was a kid. My dad used to sing it to me when I was a little girl. He'd also sing "Tie a Yellow Ribbon" too, but I digress. ANYWAY the weird part is I have heard that song TWICE today.
On a brighter note, Zach had a football game tonight. We are just getting back. I am feeling kinda guilty. I attend the games. I support my baby in all that he does, yet I am not one of those "crazy" parents, wearing their kids jersey and having tailgate parties...I mean COME ON! Are you kidding me? Yet a part of me feels guilty because maybe I should be like that? I am proud of him in so many ways above and so beyond football. I go because he's asked me to go.
Weird. I haven't heard the song "Raindrops Keep Falling on my Head" since I was a kid. My dad used to sing it to me when I was a little girl. He'd also sing "Tie a Yellow Ribbon" too, but I digress. ANYWAY the weird part is I have heard that song TWICE today.
Monday, September 29, 2008
September 29, 2008
My schedule right now at work has the weeks flying by. July, August, September are now gone. I am expecting October to do the same. The good news about that is that soccer season will be over before you know it. Last September and October was just agonizing. I wasn't working then. I still don't like having Mitch gone so much during soccer season, but at least I barely have time to notice. I work Tuesday and Wednesday 8-3. Thursday off. Friday and Saturday 8-3. Sunday and Monday off.
Tomorrow will probably be a bit different. As is today I am sure, but I don't work on Mondays, so I won't know how things will be shaping up tomorrow. Like when is Roger's funeral? And after all that is over, and we get back to business, how will this affect things? We used a specific company vehicle to accomodate Roger's wheelchair. We won't be using it for that specific purpose anymore, which is where I come in...I used to drive that caravan and Roger on Fridays... so do I not start work there anymore? Are we all riding in the same vehicle now? Am I just heading to the day program myself?
Tomorrow will probably be a bit different. As is today I am sure, but I don't work on Mondays, so I won't know how things will be shaping up tomorrow. Like when is Roger's funeral? And after all that is over, and we get back to business, how will this affect things? We used a specific company vehicle to accomodate Roger's wheelchair. We won't be using it for that specific purpose anymore, which is where I come in...I used to drive that caravan and Roger on Fridays... so do I not start work there anymore? Are we all riding in the same vehicle now? Am I just heading to the day program myself?
Sunday, September 28, 2008
September 28, 2008
Mitch will be home today! It has been a long two days without him!
It has been a long week. Glad to see that it is over. Friday was such a miserable day. My only regret is that that would be the last day I ever spent with Roger and I didn't enjoy it. Of course I didn't know it would be the last day but when I was stuck waiting around in traffic, on blocked and flooded roads, and then again at Russell Ave., I had a feeling God was trying to tell me something. He gave me another opportunity to see Roger after I dropped him off because I still had the van keys and had to bring them back to the house. Roger was a good, sweet sweet man and loved going to church and loved God and I know he is free of his broken body now and smiling down on those of us who loved him.
My hope is that this week will be better.
It has been a long week. Glad to see that it is over. Friday was such a miserable day. My only regret is that that would be the last day I ever spent with Roger and I didn't enjoy it. Of course I didn't know it would be the last day but when I was stuck waiting around in traffic, on blocked and flooded roads, and then again at Russell Ave., I had a feeling God was trying to tell me something. He gave me another opportunity to see Roger after I dropped him off because I still had the van keys and had to bring them back to the house. Roger was a good, sweet sweet man and loved going to church and loved God and I know he is free of his broken body now and smiling down on those of us who loved him.
My hope is that this week will be better.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
September 27, 2008
So I found out this morning that a gentleman I work with on Friday passed away in his sleep last night. Goodbye, sweet Roger. You will be missed!
Friday, September 26, 2008
So Bad So Crazy
Today was so bad and so crazy that at this point it is darn near funny. Let me give you a run down of everything that went wrong.
Let me preface it by saying that it has been POURING all morning and afternoon and no end in sight.
I know I mentioned I was going in an hour earlier to help a friend out. Done. However, I woke up at 3 AM and could not go back to sleep, so my day started at 3 AM. I dropped two cranky kids off at school in the pouring rain at 6:30 AM. I got to work and was met at the door by overnight staff saying I couldn't leave until Person B got picked up by his brother which should occur at 8:30 AM. The problem with that is that I am scheduled to get person C every Friday at 8 AM. So now this favor is more than disrupting my schedule, it is now messing up the Day Program schedule. Whatever whatever, a few phone calls later and I am good with the guys until 8:30. 9 AM rolls by and person B is still with us. Placed another phone call and we were now set to stay put until person B got picked up. Finally at 9:15 AM Person A and I are on the road to get Person C. Am met at the door with a list of prescriptions (like 10) that need to be dropped off and picked up. However, Person B will only be with his brother for ONE hour and so now I have 1/2 hour to drop of Persons A & C and then go back to Newport to get person B and bring him to the day program. UGH!
Soooo, drop off Person C because Person A was misbehaving and so he was staying with me to go back and get person B. Get him and all three of us head back to get our group and have our regularly scheduled outing like every Friday. We get back to switch company vehicles and discover the other one has a dead battery because staff left the lights on. No cables. Finally tracked down cables and I am the only staff member that knows how to boost a battery. WHAAAAAT? No problem except it is POURING rain! We're jumped and running and off on our outing, plus have to get checks, meds and run another errand.
Finally back to day program to discover that other company vehicle has a flat tire!!! So I take it to the gas station for some air as it wasn't completely flat. IN THE POURING RAIN.
Day program is now over, so I go back to pick up People A, B, and C. Load them up and head home. Yay!!! We are on time. Maybe today is turning around! NOT!!!! Nobody mentioned to 2nd shift staff that because the girl I was helping out is on vacation, she will have to come in a half hour early. So I ended up waiting with People A and B because they can't be left alone. I am officially off shift at 3. It is now 3. I still have to drive thru traffic to drop off Person C and return company vehicle and pick up my own car. It is now 3:15. My kids have been done school since 2 PM and are waiting patiently in the POURING rain. Get just over the Newport bridge after paying a token and discover I still have the company vehicle keys!!! UGH! Mother-effing no good ever loving day!!!! So I RUN the token booth because I will be damned if I am paying yet another token after this day I have had.
I get back to the company vehicle and drop off keys, only to turn around and head for home. It is now 3:48 PM. The road I am on and have been on is now closed due to severe flooding. WHAT??? Kids are literally on boogie boards body surfing down the street.
FInally get my kids and am now home enjoying dinner at 5:29 PM. There is dance tonight and Zach has been asked to go by three girls. Not sure what he told them except that he is going??? I may not have to give him a ride home if the three find out about each other.
The only good thing I can think of that has happened today is that today is payday.
Let me preface it by saying that it has been POURING all morning and afternoon and no end in sight.
I know I mentioned I was going in an hour earlier to help a friend out. Done. However, I woke up at 3 AM and could not go back to sleep, so my day started at 3 AM. I dropped two cranky kids off at school in the pouring rain at 6:30 AM. I got to work and was met at the door by overnight staff saying I couldn't leave until Person B got picked up by his brother which should occur at 8:30 AM. The problem with that is that I am scheduled to get person C every Friday at 8 AM. So now this favor is more than disrupting my schedule, it is now messing up the Day Program schedule. Whatever whatever, a few phone calls later and I am good with the guys until 8:30. 9 AM rolls by and person B is still with us. Placed another phone call and we were now set to stay put until person B got picked up. Finally at 9:15 AM Person A and I are on the road to get Person C. Am met at the door with a list of prescriptions (like 10) that need to be dropped off and picked up. However, Person B will only be with his brother for ONE hour and so now I have 1/2 hour to drop of Persons A & C and then go back to Newport to get person B and bring him to the day program. UGH!
Soooo, drop off Person C because Person A was misbehaving and so he was staying with me to go back and get person B. Get him and all three of us head back to get our group and have our regularly scheduled outing like every Friday. We get back to switch company vehicles and discover the other one has a dead battery because staff left the lights on. No cables. Finally tracked down cables and I am the only staff member that knows how to boost a battery. WHAAAAAT? No problem except it is POURING rain! We're jumped and running and off on our outing, plus have to get checks, meds and run another errand.
Finally back to day program to discover that other company vehicle has a flat tire!!! So I take it to the gas station for some air as it wasn't completely flat. IN THE POURING RAIN.
Day program is now over, so I go back to pick up People A, B, and C. Load them up and head home. Yay!!! We are on time. Maybe today is turning around! NOT!!!! Nobody mentioned to 2nd shift staff that because the girl I was helping out is on vacation, she will have to come in a half hour early. So I ended up waiting with People A and B because they can't be left alone. I am officially off shift at 3. It is now 3. I still have to drive thru traffic to drop off Person C and return company vehicle and pick up my own car. It is now 3:15. My kids have been done school since 2 PM and are waiting patiently in the POURING rain. Get just over the Newport bridge after paying a token and discover I still have the company vehicle keys!!! UGH! Mother-effing no good ever loving day!!!! So I RUN the token booth because I will be damned if I am paying yet another token after this day I have had.
I get back to the company vehicle and drop off keys, only to turn around and head for home. It is now 3:48 PM. The road I am on and have been on is now closed due to severe flooding. WHAT??? Kids are literally on boogie boards body surfing down the street.
FInally get my kids and am now home enjoying dinner at 5:29 PM. There is dance tonight and Zach has been asked to go by three girls. Not sure what he told them except that he is going??? I may not have to give him a ride home if the three find out about each other.
The only good thing I can think of that has happened today is that today is payday.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Stuff
The meeting was fine. I got the kids squared away for tomorrow. I am ready for bed and am going to go read for a little while. All I have to do is get thru tomorrow morning (UGH!!!) and the rest of the afternoon should be a breeze and then I will be home again.
We are supposed to be getting BIG HUGE amounts of rain. 1-2 inches tomorrow and 1-2 inches tomorrow night. That is a potential of 4 inches and the forecast for Saturday says to expect "significant" amounts of rain...things could get interesting!!!
The kids and I had Burger King tonight. Blah. Didn't really hit the spot.
We are supposed to be getting BIG HUGE amounts of rain. 1-2 inches tomorrow and 1-2 inches tomorrow night. That is a potential of 4 inches and the forecast for Saturday says to expect "significant" amounts of rain...things could get interesting!!!
The kids and I had Burger King tonight. Blah. Didn't really hit the spot.
September 25, 2008
I hate it when Mitch is out of town for a few days. Hate it.
AND of course, I told a friend at work I would come in an hour early to cover for her because that was the only hour that was holding up her vacation. So that means, I have to either give the kids the day off from school or drop them off at 6:30 AM. The girls will probably take the day off, but Zach can't if he wants to play in his football game tomorrow night. So either he rides his bike to school, which is fine, but I don't have the suburban to pick him and his bike up after the game and it will really be too late and too dark for him to have to ride the bike home. Looks like Zachie will be going to school early tomorrow. Of course none of this ever any issue on the weeks that Mitch isn't out of town. Just the way things like to work sometimes. Do a favor only to have it turn around and bite you in the butt!
Things I don't mind about Mitch being gone are:
1. I can read in bed without feeling like I am robbing him of rest because I have the light on, even though he says he doesn't mind.
2. I can watch what I want on tv even though we always watch what I want on tv, I don't have to feel guilty about it.
3. I don't have to worry about looking "beautiful" for a few days even though Mitch says he loves no matter how I look.
That is pretty much it. Other than those things, I hate having him gone.
I also have that meeting from 3:30-5:30...Zach gets done football practice between 4:30-5 and I won't be able to get to him until at least 5:45-6 PM...I hate having to make him wait, especially after a long day at school and then practice. The kid is hungry and thirsty and dirty and just wants to go home and eat, drink, shower and do homework.
I am just feeling overwhelmed by stuff that I know needs to get done and I know it will get done, but I am going to think about it until the day is over. We'll probably just go out to eat tonight and make supper tomorrow night because it will be late when Zach gets back tomorrow night. The game might actually get cancelled. They are predicting heavy rain and we could get over two inches of the wet yuckiness. I hope it rains all weekend.
Have I mentioned how much I really don't want to attend this meeting? It is over-time for me though. I will get paid $50 for just sitting there and listening.
AND of course, I told a friend at work I would come in an hour early to cover for her because that was the only hour that was holding up her vacation. So that means, I have to either give the kids the day off from school or drop them off at 6:30 AM. The girls will probably take the day off, but Zach can't if he wants to play in his football game tomorrow night. So either he rides his bike to school, which is fine, but I don't have the suburban to pick him and his bike up after the game and it will really be too late and too dark for him to have to ride the bike home. Looks like Zachie will be going to school early tomorrow. Of course none of this ever any issue on the weeks that Mitch isn't out of town. Just the way things like to work sometimes. Do a favor only to have it turn around and bite you in the butt!
Things I don't mind about Mitch being gone are:
1. I can read in bed without feeling like I am robbing him of rest because I have the light on, even though he says he doesn't mind.
2. I can watch what I want on tv even though we always watch what I want on tv, I don't have to feel guilty about it.
3. I don't have to worry about looking "beautiful" for a few days even though Mitch says he loves no matter how I look.
That is pretty much it. Other than those things, I hate having him gone.
I also have that meeting from 3:30-5:30...Zach gets done football practice between 4:30-5 and I won't be able to get to him until at least 5:45-6 PM...I hate having to make him wait, especially after a long day at school and then practice. The kid is hungry and thirsty and dirty and just wants to go home and eat, drink, shower and do homework.
I am just feeling overwhelmed by stuff that I know needs to get done and I know it will get done, but I am going to think about it until the day is over. We'll probably just go out to eat tonight and make supper tomorrow night because it will be late when Zach gets back tomorrow night. The game might actually get cancelled. They are predicting heavy rain and we could get over two inches of the wet yuckiness. I hope it rains all weekend.
Have I mentioned how much I really don't want to attend this meeting? It is over-time for me though. I will get paid $50 for just sitting there and listening.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
September 24, 2008
It has been awhile since I blogged. Not sure why I took the break. The internet is so dang boring lately. I find when I am on, it is to just be on and I end up waiting to see if something exciting happens, which it never does. Could I have officially surfed the entire web? It was bound to happen eventually.
Work is work these days. I am excited about something in particular though, involving work. Crap! I just remembered I have a stupid meeting tomorrow on MY DAY OFF! UGH! I hate when that happens.
I miss Debi. I miss Sunday nights at church with her.
Kayla is making chex mix right now. The house smells yummy.
I just wish "something" would happen. You know. The "thing" that I want to happen. But hasn't. I am not so good at waiting.
I am currently reading Confessions of an Ugly Step-Sister. Speaking of sisters, I need to call mine. She called me two days ago and left me a message to call her back and I have yet to do so. Blah. I am such a bad person.
Work is work these days. I am excited about something in particular though, involving work. Crap! I just remembered I have a stupid meeting tomorrow on MY DAY OFF! UGH! I hate when that happens.
I miss Debi. I miss Sunday nights at church with her.
Kayla is making chex mix right now. The house smells yummy.
I just wish "something" would happen. You know. The "thing" that I want to happen. But hasn't. I am not so good at waiting.
I am currently reading Confessions of an Ugly Step-Sister. Speaking of sisters, I need to call mine. She called me two days ago and left me a message to call her back and I have yet to do so. Blah. I am such a bad person.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Blah!
This has been a yucky day off. Don't get me wrong, any day off is a day worth having, but I am so freaking bored. It is too chilly for the beach, even though the weather is beautiful. My stomach is achy and I am feeling a bit feverish. It is only noon and I can't wait to pick the kids up. It is so darn boring today. I tried to read. Instead I have just been messing around online. It is even boring in blog world.
I wish Mitch was home from work already.
It is days like this when I get the urge to disappear. Into the Wild. Like the book. I won't. And if I did, I would take Mitch and the kids and Sierra.
I wonder if it has snowed yet where my friend Terri is living in Alaska. She is in an extremely remote fishing village, teaching away, living and loving her adventure.
I am feeling a bit better after making myself a salad for lunch. I love any excuse to use this new to me brand of Greek Feta that is garlic and herb flavored. Yummy.
I also forgot my mulit-vitamin today. I am trying to remember to take it every day and am not doing so well. I want to be in good health for when we actually...take the next step...in our master plan.
The kids seem to be doing much better with me home every afternoon. Homework is getting done, the house is staying relatively picked up. Zach's football career is just taking OFF! I am so proud of his new behavior. He is doing homework without having to be hounded. He is making every practice. He, I think, is very proud that he was able to make an appearance in last weekend's game as a freshman. His coach is a bit militant, sounding like a drill sergeant, but I really don't think that is a bad thing for a 14 year old boy. Kind of like a mini-dose of Military School, and don't think I haven't entertained the idea of that alternative. There is no way I am just sending him to live with his dad. That is like taking the easy way out in my opinion. Mike would do fine, no doubt in my mind, with Zach, but he unfortunately has to work a lot of long hours and neither one of us really want Zach to be left with that much time on his hands unsupervised. That is just an invitation to get into drugs and alcohol and sex. We've made it this far with him to start making selfish, stupid choices now.
Weird how a blog post can take a turn of its own like that...let's get back to my being bored. Apathetic. That is how I am feeling I guess.
Mitch and I are working on and praying about a career in which we can work together. That will be exciting. I don't think there are a lot of couples who could work together, but I know we would be great at it. Between texting, calling and emailing, it is kind of like we're together all day now anyway.
I wish Mitch was home from work already.
It is days like this when I get the urge to disappear. Into the Wild. Like the book. I won't. And if I did, I would take Mitch and the kids and Sierra.
I wonder if it has snowed yet where my friend Terri is living in Alaska. She is in an extremely remote fishing village, teaching away, living and loving her adventure.
I am feeling a bit better after making myself a salad for lunch. I love any excuse to use this new to me brand of Greek Feta that is garlic and herb flavored. Yummy.
I also forgot my mulit-vitamin today. I am trying to remember to take it every day and am not doing so well. I want to be in good health for when we actually...take the next step...in our master plan.
The kids seem to be doing much better with me home every afternoon. Homework is getting done, the house is staying relatively picked up. Zach's football career is just taking OFF! I am so proud of his new behavior. He is doing homework without having to be hounded. He is making every practice. He, I think, is very proud that he was able to make an appearance in last weekend's game as a freshman. His coach is a bit militant, sounding like a drill sergeant, but I really don't think that is a bad thing for a 14 year old boy. Kind of like a mini-dose of Military School, and don't think I haven't entertained the idea of that alternative. There is no way I am just sending him to live with his dad. That is like taking the easy way out in my opinion. Mike would do fine, no doubt in my mind, with Zach, but he unfortunately has to work a lot of long hours and neither one of us really want Zach to be left with that much time on his hands unsupervised. That is just an invitation to get into drugs and alcohol and sex. We've made it this far with him to start making selfish, stupid choices now.
Weird how a blog post can take a turn of its own like that...let's get back to my being bored. Apathetic. That is how I am feeling I guess.
Mitch and I are working on and praying about a career in which we can work together. That will be exciting. I don't think there are a lot of couples who could work together, but I know we would be great at it. Between texting, calling and emailing, it is kind of like we're together all day now anyway.
September 18, 2008
It is CHILLY this morning!!! BRRRR!
It is so nice to have the house to myself for a little while today. Just Sierra and me. Kids are in school and Mitch is at work.
Still watching more of the Ike aftermath...can you imagine not being ALLOWED to go to your house to collect belongings or see what is left or just go back home? I would have a hard time with the road blocks and authorities telling me I wasn't allowed to go to the site. And they are doing what exactly? It isn't like they are personally cleaning and restoring everyones homes. I think it is the homeowner/landowners right to be able to survey damages so they can file insurance claims, etc and salvage what valuables they can...
I bought two new movies yesterday. I haven't watched them yet. I Pronounce You Chuck and Larry and Walk Hard.
Almost done A Million Little Pieces. It is good. I guess I can't really say that it is the most profound thing I have ever read. I can relate to his withdrawal symptoms, not because I am in any way an addict, but because they are very similar to the symptoms I was having when I was dealing with a severe and debilitating anxiety disorder. It is easy for me to see how one could turn to self-medicating if that was the only way they found relief from those feelings, or other overwhelming feelings of anger, depression, shame, whatever. I thank the Lord that when I was in the midst of my crisis, I had support and found the "right" people at the right time that were able to help me and get me through it and I didn't turn to drugs and alcohol first.
It is so nice to have the house to myself for a little while today. Just Sierra and me. Kids are in school and Mitch is at work.
Still watching more of the Ike aftermath...can you imagine not being ALLOWED to go to your house to collect belongings or see what is left or just go back home? I would have a hard time with the road blocks and authorities telling me I wasn't allowed to go to the site. And they are doing what exactly? It isn't like they are personally cleaning and restoring everyones homes. I think it is the homeowner/landowners right to be able to survey damages so they can file insurance claims, etc and salvage what valuables they can...
I bought two new movies yesterday. I haven't watched them yet. I Pronounce You Chuck and Larry and Walk Hard.
Almost done A Million Little Pieces. It is good. I guess I can't really say that it is the most profound thing I have ever read. I can relate to his withdrawal symptoms, not because I am in any way an addict, but because they are very similar to the symptoms I was having when I was dealing with a severe and debilitating anxiety disorder. It is easy for me to see how one could turn to self-medicating if that was the only way they found relief from those feelings, or other overwhelming feelings of anger, depression, shame, whatever. I thank the Lord that when I was in the midst of my crisis, I had support and found the "right" people at the right time that were able to help me and get me through it and I didn't turn to drugs and alcohol first.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
September 17, 2008
I am tired tonight. Work on Wednesdays is tough. It is very mentally challenging.
I have to pick up Zach at football practice in about a half hour so let's see if I can get this blog off.
Some people I know of from people I know are going to be without power for about another 3 weeks. Theirs was a particularly hard hit area of Texas. Right smack in the eye of the storm from what I've been told. Three hour waits for food, ice, etc...can you imagine? But they are positive Christians and I am sure that God will use them for wonderful things during this time. Still just the same, let's just pray for all the people that are affected by this recent storm. Really put yourselves in their place...no tv updates, no showers (hot anyway), no air conditioners, no hair dryers, no freezers, little food, low supplies, outrageous gas prices...you probably think it is odd that I throw the hair dryer in the mix, but sometimes it is the little conveniences that you miss the most, that can make things bearable or not. You know? For that matter, microwaves, coffee pots, internet, stoves...kind of like a permanent camping vacation.
The closest we ever came to anything like that was during a major ice storm in Maine in 1998. Penobscot county was without power for almost two weeks. Some even longer. Mainers were more prepared I think because we all pretty much use alternatives to fuel as back up anyway...ie...woodstoves, fireplaces, pellet stoves...and a lot of Mainers, my family included, had access to generators and we got thru. Using as little fuel as possible, making due, helping neighbors because many roads were impassable. Crews from as far south as North Carolina came up to help restore power lines. Lots of restaurants were offering free and reduced food prices. School had been on February vacation, but ended up getting an additional week off from school. Even with all that stuff going on around us, we managed to have a good time. My three and Meghan spent the time with my grandparents out to the lake. We were fed, warm, able to take showers and watch the little tv that my grandfather would let us hook up to the generator for a few hours at night. Other than that, we played games, the kids played outside, and we just made memories that the kids will remember when they are grandparents themselves.
Still I can imagine the frustration many Texans are feeling right now and honestly, I think I would pack up and head out of state to ride it out and come back after power was restored. I'm not sure I have it in me anymore to weather a disaster of that magnitude.
If anything, let it be a reminder to not take our conveniences for granted.
I have to pick up Zach at football practice in about a half hour so let's see if I can get this blog off.
Some people I know of from people I know are going to be without power for about another 3 weeks. Theirs was a particularly hard hit area of Texas. Right smack in the eye of the storm from what I've been told. Three hour waits for food, ice, etc...can you imagine? But they are positive Christians and I am sure that God will use them for wonderful things during this time. Still just the same, let's just pray for all the people that are affected by this recent storm. Really put yourselves in their place...no tv updates, no showers (hot anyway), no air conditioners, no hair dryers, no freezers, little food, low supplies, outrageous gas prices...you probably think it is odd that I throw the hair dryer in the mix, but sometimes it is the little conveniences that you miss the most, that can make things bearable or not. You know? For that matter, microwaves, coffee pots, internet, stoves...kind of like a permanent camping vacation.
The closest we ever came to anything like that was during a major ice storm in Maine in 1998. Penobscot county was without power for almost two weeks. Some even longer. Mainers were more prepared I think because we all pretty much use alternatives to fuel as back up anyway...ie...woodstoves, fireplaces, pellet stoves...and a lot of Mainers, my family included, had access to generators and we got thru. Using as little fuel as possible, making due, helping neighbors because many roads were impassable. Crews from as far south as North Carolina came up to help restore power lines. Lots of restaurants were offering free and reduced food prices. School had been on February vacation, but ended up getting an additional week off from school. Even with all that stuff going on around us, we managed to have a good time. My three and Meghan spent the time with my grandparents out to the lake. We were fed, warm, able to take showers and watch the little tv that my grandfather would let us hook up to the generator for a few hours at night. Other than that, we played games, the kids played outside, and we just made memories that the kids will remember when they are grandparents themselves.
Still I can imagine the frustration many Texans are feeling right now and honestly, I think I would pack up and head out of state to ride it out and come back after power was restored. I'm not sure I have it in me anymore to weather a disaster of that magnitude.
If anything, let it be a reminder to not take our conveniences for granted.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
ALSO
Two new favorite songs with two new favorite bands...
Sex on Fire by Kings of Leon
Handlebars by The Flobots
checkem out!
Sex on Fire by Kings of Leon
Handlebars by The Flobots
checkem out!
September 16, 2008
I am so glad I am home right now doing nothing!!! It feels good to just sit here on the couch. Today was an exciting day at work but draining. My ear is bothering me pretty bad at different times of the day...usually early morning and again when I am trying to sleep. I bought drugs for tonight. My doctor's appointment is on my day off Thursday. I hope I can make it that long. Other "things" at work seem to be getting better.
Wow! I am eating red pepper on my dinner this evening and I just bit into an incredibly spicy part. OMGosh!!! My tongue is actually tingling. I love spicy foods. I have to laugh when people of hispanic or Indian decent think they have the hottest foods...I have to say, they have nothing on two friends I have from Africa. One lives in Bangor now and one lives in Pawtucket. Both cook or have cooked similar recipes for me and OMGOSH!!! I have never, never experienced hotness like that and they eat it without batting a pretty eyelash, while I am literally sweating because the food is so hot!
So I am reading James Frey's A Million Little Pieces. I purposely did not read it because of all the hype it was getting, first good hype then extremely bad press especially from Oprah herself. Mind you, I read what I want regardless of press or hype, good or bad reviews, however, I found it difficult to just concentrate on the book without thinking this author is lying. For me to enjoy a story, I place a lot of trust in the author. Trust that the story will develop and provide the proper twists and turns and at the very least conclude efficiently, whether that story be fiction or non-fiction. This situation was unique because it was marketed as non-fiction, and later turned out to be completely fiction, with a whole lot of bad press. I kind of just washed my hands of the whole thing as was like, Let this be the one book I don't read. I found the book again the other day and was like, What the heck. I know it is fiction now and can enjoy it as such. I have no expectations and let's just go for the ride. So far, it is an excellent read. I guess I am just left wondering why he didn't market it as fiction in the first place. The story speaks for itself.
Wow! I am eating red pepper on my dinner this evening and I just bit into an incredibly spicy part. OMGosh!!! My tongue is actually tingling. I love spicy foods. I have to laugh when people of hispanic or Indian decent think they have the hottest foods...I have to say, they have nothing on two friends I have from Africa. One lives in Bangor now and one lives in Pawtucket. Both cook or have cooked similar recipes for me and OMGOSH!!! I have never, never experienced hotness like that and they eat it without batting a pretty eyelash, while I am literally sweating because the food is so hot!
So I am reading James Frey's A Million Little Pieces. I purposely did not read it because of all the hype it was getting, first good hype then extremely bad press especially from Oprah herself. Mind you, I read what I want regardless of press or hype, good or bad reviews, however, I found it difficult to just concentrate on the book without thinking this author is lying. For me to enjoy a story, I place a lot of trust in the author. Trust that the story will develop and provide the proper twists and turns and at the very least conclude efficiently, whether that story be fiction or non-fiction. This situation was unique because it was marketed as non-fiction, and later turned out to be completely fiction, with a whole lot of bad press. I kind of just washed my hands of the whole thing as was like, Let this be the one book I don't read. I found the book again the other day and was like, What the heck. I know it is fiction now and can enjoy it as such. I have no expectations and let's just go for the ride. So far, it is an excellent read. I guess I am just left wondering why he didn't market it as fiction in the first place. The story speaks for itself.
Monday, September 15, 2008
September 15, 2008
So I am officially Mrs. Jennifer Stone. It has been a crazy week and I haven't quite got my head wrapped around it all yet.
We brought Allison to the bus depot in Providence at 3 AM this morning. We came back and slept until around 10 AM. It was good to sleep in, but I haven't been sleeping well at all. Lots of tossing and turning. I just can't get comfortable. Plus this swimmer's ear thing I have going on is driving me CRAZY!
There was so much I wanted to get done today but just lacked the energy and motivation, although Mitch and I did clean the house. The only thing bad about company is their extra stuff they bring (luggage, etc.) clutters the house up. When we get a new house, it will most definitely have a guest room and guest bathroom. I have discovered that while guest rooms are a nice gift to the guest, it is a bigger gift to the homeowners.
I just desperately want to take some time off. Time away. Not sure what I want time away from. Me, I think. I know once I get back to work tomorrow, I will be energized again. Mavis and Kathleen should both be back from vacation.
I actually had a nice conversation with my mom yesterday. It has been a long time since we just talked. About our relationship. About me still be her baby girl. Lately it has been how things are going, how the kids are and how my brothers and sister and their kids are...tense and short conversations. Not that yesterday's was terribly long, but it was a quality conversation.
Zach played 8 plays in his first varsity football game. A big deal for a freshman!!! I am so proud of him! I really didn't think he'd be put in until probably late in the season in a game that didn't much matter. Hayley played clarinet in the marching band at the game. It was a good time. She did a super job. Kayla got her hair cut! The shortest she's ever cut it. Just below her chin. It is cute. I like it better when she leaves it curly instead of when she straightens it.
We bought Baby Mama over the weekend. It is not as good as I had planned on it being. Pretty much all the funny parts were already seen in the trailers. AND I guess I am surprised that everyone is surprised that Tina Fey makes a good Sarah Palin. Did people really not see that coming? I am more surprised she came back to SNL.
More on Sarah Palin...I know I said I liked her, and I still do, but I have to admit that upon further reading her views on conservation and global warming, we are not in alignment. I wouldn't even call her views (on this subject) conservative. I would call them ill-informed and even dangerous. The fact that she is on record saying she can't blame the changes of our environment on humans left me feeling like WTF? How can our gazillion tons of trash and pollution NOT have an effect on our environment??? I am sure she is thinking correlation doesn't necessarily mean causation, but sometimes you just have to use common-sense and err on the side of the greater good.
We brought Allison to the bus depot in Providence at 3 AM this morning. We came back and slept until around 10 AM. It was good to sleep in, but I haven't been sleeping well at all. Lots of tossing and turning. I just can't get comfortable. Plus this swimmer's ear thing I have going on is driving me CRAZY!
There was so much I wanted to get done today but just lacked the energy and motivation, although Mitch and I did clean the house. The only thing bad about company is their extra stuff they bring (luggage, etc.) clutters the house up. When we get a new house, it will most definitely have a guest room and guest bathroom. I have discovered that while guest rooms are a nice gift to the guest, it is a bigger gift to the homeowners.
I just desperately want to take some time off. Time away. Not sure what I want time away from. Me, I think. I know once I get back to work tomorrow, I will be energized again. Mavis and Kathleen should both be back from vacation.
I actually had a nice conversation with my mom yesterday. It has been a long time since we just talked. About our relationship. About me still be her baby girl. Lately it has been how things are going, how the kids are and how my brothers and sister and their kids are...tense and short conversations. Not that yesterday's was terribly long, but it was a quality conversation.
Zach played 8 plays in his first varsity football game. A big deal for a freshman!!! I am so proud of him! I really didn't think he'd be put in until probably late in the season in a game that didn't much matter. Hayley played clarinet in the marching band at the game. It was a good time. She did a super job. Kayla got her hair cut! The shortest she's ever cut it. Just below her chin. It is cute. I like it better when she leaves it curly instead of when she straightens it.
We bought Baby Mama over the weekend. It is not as good as I had planned on it being. Pretty much all the funny parts were already seen in the trailers. AND I guess I am surprised that everyone is surprised that Tina Fey makes a good Sarah Palin. Did people really not see that coming? I am more surprised she came back to SNL.
More on Sarah Palin...I know I said I liked her, and I still do, but I have to admit that upon further reading her views on conservation and global warming, we are not in alignment. I wouldn't even call her views (on this subject) conservative. I would call them ill-informed and even dangerous. The fact that she is on record saying she can't blame the changes of our environment on humans left me feeling like WTF? How can our gazillion tons of trash and pollution NOT have an effect on our environment??? I am sure she is thinking correlation doesn't necessarily mean causation, but sometimes you just have to use common-sense and err on the side of the greater good.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Pray For
My friends in Texas, several of whom and their families are on the Texas coast. Pray that they make the trek back to their homes safely and to actually FIND their homes still complete.
I am selfishly grateful that my baby girl won't be in college until next year! She has been playing with the idea of going to college in Texas.
However, she still wants to move south or west. Zach plans on going to college in California. So between them, methinks I will be worried about hurricanes, earthquakes, wild fires, landslides, not to mention every day crime and all the partying through the duration of their college experience. Hayley bless her little heart, wants to stay close to mama bear and go to Johnson & Wales here in RI.
I am selfishly grateful that my baby girl won't be in college until next year! She has been playing with the idea of going to college in Texas.
However, she still wants to move south or west. Zach plans on going to college in California. So between them, methinks I will be worried about hurricanes, earthquakes, wild fires, landslides, not to mention every day crime and all the partying through the duration of their college experience. Hayley bless her little heart, wants to stay close to mama bear and go to Johnson & Wales here in RI.
Monday, September 08, 2008
September 8, 2008
Had a great day at the beach with Allison. My only regret is that we didn't know about our little impromptu visit sooner so I could taken a day or two off of work. It will still work out okay. I will be out of work by three tomorrow. So we can do stuff tomorrow night. I will be home by 3 on Wednesday, too. Thursday I have off. Friday and Saturday, home by three. I am also getting married on Saturday.
I also think I may have an ear infection.
I also think I may have an ear infection.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
September 7, 2008
Going, going, going to the beach today! That is Zach, Kayla and I. Mitch has practice and Hayley is supposed to go to Block Island with some friends. Maybe Allison and I will go on Thursday on my day off. That will be a fun thing for us to do. Mitch said he'd get the girls from school if I wanted to do something like that.
I can't wait to see Allison. We are picking her up late tonight.
I can't wait to see Allison. We are picking her up late tonight.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
UGH!
Does the yardman HAVE to block me in my driveway? A little presumptuous of him to park behind either vehicle without asking if anyone in the home was leaving in the next five minutes. Also I think he could park on the side of the road. Whatever.
So I am a Democrat and will likely vote for Obama because this is HISTORY in the making people. How exciting. I come from a generation just after the 60s and feel like I missed out big time, especially when sitting around listening to my parents and their friends talk about what an exciting and empowering time that was. However, I really like Sarah Palin. She is real. She is smart. She is a working mom. Amazing lady. Brilliant brilliant move on McCain's part. This will be one exciting election. I am less excited about McCain. In a perfect world parties wouldn't matter and Obama and Palin could rule the nation together!
I am excited to say my new exercise routine is paying off! In just two weeks, I am back to where I was, but with greater abs, butt and thighs. I have to be careful because my thighs can get bulky, which isn't the look that I am going for, but that is just the way things are. I started gymnastics around the age of 3 and quit in high school, but the "athletic" looking thighs stayed behind!
Okay, off to the beach for a few hours.
So I am a Democrat and will likely vote for Obama because this is HISTORY in the making people. How exciting. I come from a generation just after the 60s and feel like I missed out big time, especially when sitting around listening to my parents and their friends talk about what an exciting and empowering time that was. However, I really like Sarah Palin. She is real. She is smart. She is a working mom. Amazing lady. Brilliant brilliant move on McCain's part. This will be one exciting election. I am less excited about McCain. In a perfect world parties wouldn't matter and Obama and Palin could rule the nation together!
I am excited to say my new exercise routine is paying off! In just two weeks, I am back to where I was, but with greater abs, butt and thighs. I have to be careful because my thighs can get bulky, which isn't the look that I am going for, but that is just the way things are. I started gymnastics around the age of 3 and quit in high school, but the "athletic" looking thighs stayed behind!
Okay, off to the beach for a few hours.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Oh My Goodness!
THIS REALLY WORKS!!! My iPod Nano froze today with a low battery. Which meant no tunes for my RUN! GRRRRR! SO during my run, I was pissed. Pissed with a capital P! If something costs $200 or more, you should be able to use it for a considerable amount of time before it breaks. I was still thinking it was broken. I imagined myself bringing my precious to the Apple store and demanding they fix it right then and there and lots of other imaginings. Because it was frozen, it wasn't recognizing any of my chargers (the car dock, the computer charger and even my wall charger). I went online after my run and there were several webpages about unfreezing your iPod. I guess this is a pretty common problem. Tried their suggestion for a few times and then it unfroze and now is charging happily on my countertop! Ahhhhhh! Problem solved!
It will be all ready for my run tomorrow.
It will be all ready for my run tomorrow.
September 3, 2008
The kiddos go back to school tomorrow. Zach got his official home and away game uniforms for football. He also starts high school tomorrow! Kayla will be a senior tomorrow! WOW-O!!!
I made a new friend today. Jane and I have run into each other at work for the last year, but really haven't had a chance to talk much. We have a lot in common and we both look very similar. All year people have asked if I was her sister and I was like, "No." I guess people have been asking her the same thing! Anyway, she has 4 daughters and we are both the same age. She is also a Christian and actually Mitch and I had run into her at our favorite Christian bookstore in Warwick a few months ago.
Mitch also had an EXTREMELY large delivery of flowers sent to me at work today, with a card telling me to have a happy day. Definitely made up for the bad day I had yesterday, even though he had nothing to do with it!
The girls both have eye doctor appointments tomorrow. I pray all goes well with our insurance. I haven't used this new one and I know my eye doctor in Maine would have accepted this no questions asked and I am sure this new place will accept it too, but I still have some underlying fear that we'll get in there, the appointments will be over and then they will be like, "Ummmm, you have to pay for all of this NOW because your insurance won't cover it!"
So I was one of the 5 million viewers tuning into 90210. Good to see Kelly and Brenda and Nat. Good to see Erin (Silver) grown up. However, I was a bit disappointed that it came on opposite The Secret Life. I couldn't help comparing it to the original 90210. I can't tell you how much of a fan I was and still am of the original series. I used to have 90210 nights at my house every week and my friends would all come over and we'd have snacks and drinks while the kids were in bed. That was back in the day when they had bedtimes at 8 PM. Not sure if I am going to like it or not. It didn't grab me immediately like the original or like The OC or like The Secret Life...all those shows grabbed me in the first episode and I just knew I was addicted. Nothing will ever compare to the episode when Kelly pulls the engagement ring out from under her shirt. Brandon didn't know she was still wearing it on a necklace because she kept it hidden. He had figured she was over him after their engagement ended.
Oh well. I am going running tonight and then I am going to do my workout. I am going to the FREE beach tomorrow while the kids are in school! I don't have to pay again until next season! :)
I made a new friend today. Jane and I have run into each other at work for the last year, but really haven't had a chance to talk much. We have a lot in common and we both look very similar. All year people have asked if I was her sister and I was like, "No." I guess people have been asking her the same thing! Anyway, she has 4 daughters and we are both the same age. She is also a Christian and actually Mitch and I had run into her at our favorite Christian bookstore in Warwick a few months ago.
Mitch also had an EXTREMELY large delivery of flowers sent to me at work today, with a card telling me to have a happy day. Definitely made up for the bad day I had yesterday, even though he had nothing to do with it!
The girls both have eye doctor appointments tomorrow. I pray all goes well with our insurance. I haven't used this new one and I know my eye doctor in Maine would have accepted this no questions asked and I am sure this new place will accept it too, but I still have some underlying fear that we'll get in there, the appointments will be over and then they will be like, "Ummmm, you have to pay for all of this NOW because your insurance won't cover it!"
So I was one of the 5 million viewers tuning into 90210. Good to see Kelly and Brenda and Nat. Good to see Erin (Silver) grown up. However, I was a bit disappointed that it came on opposite The Secret Life. I couldn't help comparing it to the original 90210. I can't tell you how much of a fan I was and still am of the original series. I used to have 90210 nights at my house every week and my friends would all come over and we'd have snacks and drinks while the kids were in bed. That was back in the day when they had bedtimes at 8 PM. Not sure if I am going to like it or not. It didn't grab me immediately like the original or like The OC or like The Secret Life...all those shows grabbed me in the first episode and I just knew I was addicted. Nothing will ever compare to the episode when Kelly pulls the engagement ring out from under her shirt. Brandon didn't know she was still wearing it on a necklace because she kept it hidden. He had figured she was over him after their engagement ended.
Oh well. I am going running tonight and then I am going to do my workout. I am going to the FREE beach tomorrow while the kids are in school! I don't have to pay again until next season! :)
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
LONG DAY
Oh my holy goodness! Is the end of the world near? Please say yes!
I love my job. I love most of the people I work with. I even LIKE the person behind all of the trouble at work but I don't know how much longer I can take this. I am currently looking at new jobs. I am going to try and hang in and see if this situation either gets better, or something better comes along.
One good thing about the day was a conversation I had with a lady whom I have befriended. She is an older woman with grandkids and you would probably think we have nothing in common except our jobs, from appearances alone, we could not be greater opposites, but my Lord is a wonderful Lord and has brought this woman into my life. She mentors for TAM (Turning Around Ministries), which is a faith-based community outreach program designed to offer after-care services to previously incarcerated persons, providing holistic, personalized guidance and support with employment, education, housing, food, clothing, substance abuse and personal development. They are currently trying to get mentoring help for the children of their clients, and hello!!! THAT is what I was doing at my job previous to the one I am at now!!! They desperately need volunteers, especially ones with my qualifications. Despite all the bad stuff going on at work today, I loved this conversation! I love the possibilities and I loved having my passion for what I used to do shine through like it did today. It did many things for me. It reminded me of what I have to offer. It reminded me that a lot of these things are in the Lord's hands and it also reminded me of His will for my life.
And another positive about today...you find out who your true friends are fast. I am so lucky that the ladies and gentlemen that I work with care so much about this job and the people we support. They really came thru for me today and made me feel so much better. And to Pete, Sue and Robert...and Matt...thanks for making me smile today, even though that was hard for me to do a lot of the time.
I have such a headache from crying a good part of the day. Honestly, I am just feeling overworked. My job is not easy. It is extremely mentally draining with a high burn-out rate. Throw in some employee hostility and you have a recipe for MIGRAINE! I hate feeling like whatever decision you make is going to be the wrong one or will make at least one person angry. I hate not having confidence that I am going to make the right decision. I also think unfortunately this is what you find in workplaces with a lot of assistant managers, and house managers and upper administration. What you find is a situation where people are so absorbed with their own power they don't mind stepping on toes but you better NOT step on theirs!!! What makes it even more difficult is when some of these people are all on vacation, so subordinates are stepping up, as told, and making decisions, only to then be told they aren't authorized to make said decision. Undermines the entire process and creates stress among those of us who happen to just want to come in and do their job.
BUT I guess this is the start to the new (old) me. I am no longer going to just let things slide. I will confront a situation as it is happening. I will blog about what I want, when I want, and not censor myself for the sake of friendships. I have cut my losses as far as toxic relationships go.
I have the most amazing man in the world who loves and supports everything about me. I have amazing children. I have an amazing dog. My life is wonderful despite the craziness.
I love my job. I love most of the people I work with. I even LIKE the person behind all of the trouble at work but I don't know how much longer I can take this. I am currently looking at new jobs. I am going to try and hang in and see if this situation either gets better, or something better comes along.
One good thing about the day was a conversation I had with a lady whom I have befriended. She is an older woman with grandkids and you would probably think we have nothing in common except our jobs, from appearances alone, we could not be greater opposites, but my Lord is a wonderful Lord and has brought this woman into my life. She mentors for TAM (Turning Around Ministries), which is a faith-based community outreach program designed to offer after-care services to previously incarcerated persons, providing holistic, personalized guidance and support with employment, education, housing, food, clothing, substance abuse and personal development. They are currently trying to get mentoring help for the children of their clients, and hello!!! THAT is what I was doing at my job previous to the one I am at now!!! They desperately need volunteers, especially ones with my qualifications. Despite all the bad stuff going on at work today, I loved this conversation! I love the possibilities and I loved having my passion for what I used to do shine through like it did today. It did many things for me. It reminded me of what I have to offer. It reminded me that a lot of these things are in the Lord's hands and it also reminded me of His will for my life.
And another positive about today...you find out who your true friends are fast. I am so lucky that the ladies and gentlemen that I work with care so much about this job and the people we support. They really came thru for me today and made me feel so much better. And to Pete, Sue and Robert...and Matt...thanks for making me smile today, even though that was hard for me to do a lot of the time.
I have such a headache from crying a good part of the day. Honestly, I am just feeling overworked. My job is not easy. It is extremely mentally draining with a high burn-out rate. Throw in some employee hostility and you have a recipe for MIGRAINE! I hate feeling like whatever decision you make is going to be the wrong one or will make at least one person angry. I hate not having confidence that I am going to make the right decision. I also think unfortunately this is what you find in workplaces with a lot of assistant managers, and house managers and upper administration. What you find is a situation where people are so absorbed with their own power they don't mind stepping on toes but you better NOT step on theirs!!! What makes it even more difficult is when some of these people are all on vacation, so subordinates are stepping up, as told, and making decisions, only to then be told they aren't authorized to make said decision. Undermines the entire process and creates stress among those of us who happen to just want to come in and do their job.
BUT I guess this is the start to the new (old) me. I am no longer going to just let things slide. I will confront a situation as it is happening. I will blog about what I want, when I want, and not censor myself for the sake of friendships. I have cut my losses as far as toxic relationships go.
I have the most amazing man in the world who loves and supports everything about me. I have amazing children. I have an amazing dog. My life is wonderful despite the craziness.
Monday, September 01, 2008
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Confidence is Not Conceit
Feeling better. Talked to my friends and am now reassured that I am not the evil, egotistical, selfish idiot some of you have heard tell about. Nothing like a public memo to get people calling and emailing and making sure you're okay.
And now I am going to do some self-pampering. Why? Because I can. And then I am going to blog about it.
And now I am going to do some self-pampering. Why? Because I can. And then I am going to blog about it.
Oh Really...
Unfortunately I feel the need to speak a piece of my mind for the sake of doing it. It is my blog after all. UNFORTUNATELY I will more than likely need to end a friendship. Why? Oh I don't know, backstabbing assholes maybe.
First of all, I am NOT an egotistical idiot HOLLY. Friend of Eric. I did read the comment. Very classy. Isn't it funny how morbidly obese people can only seem to think to call thinner people idiots. Call me what you want. Maybe after your operation works I won't seem like such an idiot.
Second of all, Eric, I believe I did try to get out of being the best man shortly after you asked because you were being a jerk about inviting Mitch. I have the email to prove it. Apparently I missed the other "out" you were referring too? I am sorry about seeming less than enthused. WHY? Let's discuss the night of your Bachelor party where you proceeded to tell your other friend, can't remember his name, "Jenn is major MILF." You do understand what it means, YES? And you proceeded to say it in front of my fiance who was ready to punch you in the face for being so disrespectful to your so-called best friend, not to mention your own fiancee.
And you were right about me being a little disinterested in the wedding. Not for reasons you think, you insensitive jerk. It was because even though I love Erin, and love you and Erin, I was feeling like I was losing a big part of my life. Little did I know that was going to happen anyway.
So let me just say that I am hurt above everything else. I find it just a tad crass that you would have conversations about me, belittling me to your other friends. NEWSFLASH, there is plenty of shit I could say right now about, well now I am just going to have to say it, how I often felt used for rides, drinks, etc whenever we all went out. One time and only one time, did I have to not pay. You are not the only human being that feels financial strain. I was a single mom, raising three kids AND putting myself thru college, but let me just pay for your drinks, too, because you are a thirty-something year old man who can't figure out how to make more than 20, 000 a year. And while you and your better-than-me friends are talking about making social change, I am out there DOING it. Working at my second non-profit job, making a difference in people's lives, so excuse me if I want to talk about nothing BUT the benign when I am faced with some pretty heavy issues with the real people I deal with everyday! But that is the difference between you and me. I don't sit around on my computer and whine about my life, I change it. I am not caught in some pseudo world, wanting to change but not being able to get out of my own way. I too, have anxiety and depression, which has been treated on and off with therapists and medication, but I don't USE that as an excuse to be a drain on society! Say what you want about me but you can leave God out of it. For your information, I was losing interest in our friendship once I started going back to church, but I stuck by it, even after all my other friends were telling me not to. This had not a thing to do with Mitch. That was in fact two years before Mitch.
Friends accept people for who they are and where they are at. I did that for you. I feel very sad that you couldn't do that for me. And you know more than anyone, how far from an idiot I am. But that is just my soon to be master's degree talking I guess. Or maybe my ego. Maybe I shouldn't worry my pretty little head about any of this. You know what really bothers me? We could have talked about all of this and probably have been just fine. Maybe even closer because of it. But it really hurts to think of you purposely saying mean things about me to your other friends. But I am the bitch? Because I am generous, (usually) kind-hearted, and a little insecure about my looks as I am getting older? Are you for real?
I have said time and time again. This is my blog. To talk about me. To talk about what I want to talk about. If I want to talk about my lunch I will. Nobody has to read this. If I want to talk about my nails, my tanning, my clothes, what the fuck ever, I will.
I wish you and Erin the best of luck with the baby. It is unfortunate that this has to end this way. But you have your real friends. "How sad is it that Jenn is still my number 4 friend on myspace?" How sad that you aren't even on mine.
First of all, I am NOT an egotistical idiot HOLLY. Friend of Eric. I did read the comment. Very classy. Isn't it funny how morbidly obese people can only seem to think to call thinner people idiots. Call me what you want. Maybe after your operation works I won't seem like such an idiot.
Second of all, Eric, I believe I did try to get out of being the best man shortly after you asked because you were being a jerk about inviting Mitch. I have the email to prove it. Apparently I missed the other "out" you were referring too? I am sorry about seeming less than enthused. WHY? Let's discuss the night of your Bachelor party where you proceeded to tell your other friend, can't remember his name, "Jenn is major MILF." You do understand what it means, YES? And you proceeded to say it in front of my fiance who was ready to punch you in the face for being so disrespectful to your so-called best friend, not to mention your own fiancee.
And you were right about me being a little disinterested in the wedding. Not for reasons you think, you insensitive jerk. It was because even though I love Erin, and love you and Erin, I was feeling like I was losing a big part of my life. Little did I know that was going to happen anyway.
So let me just say that I am hurt above everything else. I find it just a tad crass that you would have conversations about me, belittling me to your other friends. NEWSFLASH, there is plenty of shit I could say right now about, well now I am just going to have to say it, how I often felt used for rides, drinks, etc whenever we all went out. One time and only one time, did I have to not pay. You are not the only human being that feels financial strain. I was a single mom, raising three kids AND putting myself thru college, but let me just pay for your drinks, too, because you are a thirty-something year old man who can't figure out how to make more than 20, 000 a year. And while you and your better-than-me friends are talking about making social change, I am out there DOING it. Working at my second non-profit job, making a difference in people's lives, so excuse me if I want to talk about nothing BUT the benign when I am faced with some pretty heavy issues with the real people I deal with everyday! But that is the difference between you and me. I don't sit around on my computer and whine about my life, I change it. I am not caught in some pseudo world, wanting to change but not being able to get out of my own way. I too, have anxiety and depression, which has been treated on and off with therapists and medication, but I don't USE that as an excuse to be a drain on society! Say what you want about me but you can leave God out of it. For your information, I was losing interest in our friendship once I started going back to church, but I stuck by it, even after all my other friends were telling me not to. This had not a thing to do with Mitch. That was in fact two years before Mitch.
Friends accept people for who they are and where they are at. I did that for you. I feel very sad that you couldn't do that for me. And you know more than anyone, how far from an idiot I am. But that is just my soon to be master's degree talking I guess. Or maybe my ego. Maybe I shouldn't worry my pretty little head about any of this. You know what really bothers me? We could have talked about all of this and probably have been just fine. Maybe even closer because of it. But it really hurts to think of you purposely saying mean things about me to your other friends. But I am the bitch? Because I am generous, (usually) kind-hearted, and a little insecure about my looks as I am getting older? Are you for real?
I have said time and time again. This is my blog. To talk about me. To talk about what I want to talk about. If I want to talk about my lunch I will. Nobody has to read this. If I want to talk about my nails, my tanning, my clothes, what the fuck ever, I will.
I wish you and Erin the best of luck with the baby. It is unfortunate that this has to end this way. But you have your real friends. "How sad is it that Jenn is still my number 4 friend on myspace?" How sad that you aren't even on mine.
Hmmm...
Did I actually blog about the exercise dvd's as being hard? I did the entire video today at level 4 (the hardest) and feel fine. I feel 100% better than I did the first time I did the video. I will also get my 3-miler in this evening too. That way I should be all set for relaxing tomorrow.
Anyway, Vegas was funny in a lot of parts. Predictable, but certainly worth the $1 rental fee. For those of you who don't use Redbox, you definitely should.
Smart People was okay. Ellen Page was in it and I love her, but I could really have lived my life never having seen it. SJP was horrible and Dennis Quaid has been better, too. But the underlying theme of professor/student is a little too close to my own reality so maybe that is why I did not enjoy it so much. Anyway, I think it could have been better with actors other than SJP and DQ.
The grocery store was a wreck. I hate the days before a party holiday. And of course because it is raining today, everyone took advantage of the poor weather to get the shopping done before the big day. Kind of a pain for someone like myself who is just going for a few items and to return a movie. The town will be ours again after Labor Day. Except for all of the college students who are back in town. That I am used to, having lived in a college town my whole life. The only difference here is that there is no summer respite due to HIGH tourism. Orono is and will never be a big tourist town. When in Maine, most people go to Bar Harbor, Camden, Mt. Katahdin, OOB, South Portland and the Old Port...plus Freeport because of LL Bean. Old Town gets hit once a year when Old Town Canoe has their big famous factory sale.
Anyway...everything is in place for the girls and I to just wake up and head to the beach early. We're going early to get good parking. The closest lot gets full before 11 AM. Then you have to park across the street. So far, we've gotten our spot every time we go. Tomorrow is supposed to be beautiful sunshine. Looking forward to it.
Anyway, Vegas was funny in a lot of parts. Predictable, but certainly worth the $1 rental fee. For those of you who don't use Redbox, you definitely should.
Smart People was okay. Ellen Page was in it and I love her, but I could really have lived my life never having seen it. SJP was horrible and Dennis Quaid has been better, too. But the underlying theme of professor/student is a little too close to my own reality so maybe that is why I did not enjoy it so much. Anyway, I think it could have been better with actors other than SJP and DQ.
The grocery store was a wreck. I hate the days before a party holiday. And of course because it is raining today, everyone took advantage of the poor weather to get the shopping done before the big day. Kind of a pain for someone like myself who is just going for a few items and to return a movie. The town will be ours again after Labor Day. Except for all of the college students who are back in town. That I am used to, having lived in a college town my whole life. The only difference here is that there is no summer respite due to HIGH tourism. Orono is and will never be a big tourist town. When in Maine, most people go to Bar Harbor, Camden, Mt. Katahdin, OOB, South Portland and the Old Port...plus Freeport because of LL Bean. Old Town gets hit once a year when Old Town Canoe has their big famous factory sale.
Anyway...everything is in place for the girls and I to just wake up and head to the beach early. We're going early to get good parking. The closest lot gets full before 11 AM. Then you have to park across the street. So far, we've gotten our spot every time we go. Tomorrow is supposed to be beautiful sunshine. Looking forward to it.
Friday, August 29, 2008
August 29, 2008
Kayla and I just got back from our walk. Feeling good. Feeling like I am in a fog though after working 60 hours. Like I can't remember what day it is. Feels like it should be a Wednesday or something. Not Friday. Not Labor Day weekend. Didn't we just have the 4th of July?
I bought Zach his school clothes tonight after I got out of work. He will need a few more pairs of jeans from the Gap and Old Navy. He has plenty of new shirts though.
Tomorrow Zach has a football game. Kayla, Robert and maybe Pete, and I will be attending. I hope the rain holds off for the game. Sunday we are spending the day at Scarborough Beach.
I rented two movies tonight. What Happens in Vegas and Smart People.
Beowulf is AWESOME!!!!! Loved it. Zach loved it. So much better than reading the dang thing which I remember disliking in high school.
Okay, it is 7:20 PM and I am beat. I didn't sleep well last night. It was hot, so I had the fan on, yet I couldn't sleep with the fan blowing anywhere near my face. Consequently I tossed and turned all night.
Work was better than last Friday, but a particular part of it was EXTREMELY disorganized. I felt a little taken advantage of this morning.
I bought Zach his school clothes tonight after I got out of work. He will need a few more pairs of jeans from the Gap and Old Navy. He has plenty of new shirts though.
Tomorrow Zach has a football game. Kayla, Robert and maybe Pete, and I will be attending. I hope the rain holds off for the game. Sunday we are spending the day at Scarborough Beach.
I rented two movies tonight. What Happens in Vegas and Smart People.
Beowulf is AWESOME!!!!! Loved it. Zach loved it. So much better than reading the dang thing which I remember disliking in high school.
Okay, it is 7:20 PM and I am beat. I didn't sleep well last night. It was hot, so I had the fan on, yet I couldn't sleep with the fan blowing anywhere near my face. Consequently I tossed and turned all night.
Work was better than last Friday, but a particular part of it was EXTREMELY disorganized. I felt a little taken advantage of this morning.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Owwwwwww!
OMGOODNESS!!! I mentioned I did my dvd's this AM right? Well, after the girls and I got home from shopping, I showed them the dvd and Zach wanted to do some of it...alot of the exercises are the drills they do in football practice...so I ended up doing like 15 minutes of it or so and then Hayley and I went for a walk. We mapped out our neighborhood and walked 2.3 miles. One mile of it is up hill. This will be good for training. Hopefully by the end of next week, I am running 3.5 miles, which would be three loops thru the neighborhood.
I bought some good clothes for the girls and myself. I bought three new bras. The only time I HATE being a D-cup is bra shopping because it is so damn expensive! $60 for 3 bras!!! When I start not looking right under my clothes, I usually immediately suspect I am getting fat, but usually it is just time for new bras.
I bought Hayley a cute shirt from Banana Republic and two pairs of jeans and a silky tank top like shirt that looks quite cute on her. I bought Kayla two pairs of jeans and a couple of shirts. I got two pairs of jeans, a SWEET (as in HOT) sweatshirt from Hollister, a cute shirt from The Limited and some Body by Gap workout pants with matching sweatshirt, a two piece hot pink velour warm up suit and a cute shirt from Abercrombie. I think Mitch is buying me new sneakers while he is away this weekend! Yay!
So I tried on two piles of jeans today and only threw out two pair. I have one more pile to go thru, but I have added two more to the mix. However, these two are comfortable and the right length, etc.. I often will buy a pair of jeans if they are a size too big or too small thinking, "Oh, I will just lose weight, or these will be good on the days I am feeling bloated." SO I have a closet full of bargins like that. I will say, I am a little thankful for that behavior because I had some cute jeans on hand when I went below a size 6 this winter. But really I have plenty of money to just buy what I want, in the right size and not worry if it is on sale or not. Old habits die hard, though. It is hard to refuse a sale! Plus I am starting to think I have a body from HELL! I don't know of anyone whose body fluctuates so much due to hormones. Literally, I can drop a pant size after my period. The days of my period I feel like a walking blimp!
I bought the move Beowulf the other day and I am anxious to watch it, so I am about ready to hunker down for the evening.
I bought some good clothes for the girls and myself. I bought three new bras. The only time I HATE being a D-cup is bra shopping because it is so damn expensive! $60 for 3 bras!!! When I start not looking right under my clothes, I usually immediately suspect I am getting fat, but usually it is just time for new bras.
I bought Hayley a cute shirt from Banana Republic and two pairs of jeans and a silky tank top like shirt that looks quite cute on her. I bought Kayla two pairs of jeans and a couple of shirts. I got two pairs of jeans, a SWEET (as in HOT) sweatshirt from Hollister, a cute shirt from The Limited and some Body by Gap workout pants with matching sweatshirt, a two piece hot pink velour warm up suit and a cute shirt from Abercrombie. I think Mitch is buying me new sneakers while he is away this weekend! Yay!
So I tried on two piles of jeans today and only threw out two pair. I have one more pile to go thru, but I have added two more to the mix. However, these two are comfortable and the right length, etc.. I often will buy a pair of jeans if they are a size too big or too small thinking, "Oh, I will just lose weight, or these will be good on the days I am feeling bloated." SO I have a closet full of bargins like that. I will say, I am a little thankful for that behavior because I had some cute jeans on hand when I went below a size 6 this winter. But really I have plenty of money to just buy what I want, in the right size and not worry if it is on sale or not. Old habits die hard, though. It is hard to refuse a sale! Plus I am starting to think I have a body from HELL! I don't know of anyone whose body fluctuates so much due to hormones. Literally, I can drop a pant size after my period. The days of my period I feel like a walking blimp!
I bought the move Beowulf the other day and I am anxious to watch it, so I am about ready to hunker down for the evening.
August 28, 2008
AHHHHH!!! I am soooo out of shape! I was doing my hip hop party exercise video...I am a sweating mess.
Pretty much I just need to get toned again. Not so much a weight issue with me. Just fighting the never-ending aging process and I am just so surprised at how much ground you lose when you take any kind of break. I remember the days when I could work out like 2 times a week and my muscles had good memory. Pretty much I have to work out like 5 times a week now to maintain what used to be effortless in my twenties and even early thirties. 36 sucks! :( I also did a little of my Belly, Butt and Thighs Boot Camp dvd..I think I will stick to running and my recumbent bike and playing in the waves! This is good though to shake things up a bit. I think you make many more gains if you keep your muscles guessing what is coming next! I think when it comes to actual aerobics, I need a class as opposed to a video just because of peer pressure and my competitiveness.
I used to do a cardio-workout video when my girls were babies. It was easier to just work out in the living room when they were taking their naps than to make time for a gym workout. I just don't remember it being this hard! With Zach, I got more serious about my running and stuck with that for many years, and definitely became a gym rat once I started working for the athletic department only because it was available onsite before or after work...I wasn't able to get home after a long day and say I am too tired to drive to a gym, because I worked AT the gym. The last 3 years, I definitely got into running again, which I blame my move to Rhode Island in ruining. The track here is like the only one for miles and miles and is greatly used. I really need to plan out a route around my neighborhood that I can use to settle into a rut. Ruts and routines are how I HAVE to run! I obsess about my pace time, in relation to where I am in my run, where I should be, if I am ahead of the game, losing ground, etc...it is very easy to do that if you run the same route over and over.
I do have to say, balancing in the huge waves uses muscles I didn't know I had. That is usually how I judge a good workout. How many muscles feel spent. I love that feeling.
I am going to go thru my closet today and really just toss out stuff that I have been hanging onto because I "might" wear it and get organized into things I definitely wear most often. Comfort counts in this closet razing. I am no longer hanging onto stuff that I wear for only a short time because it is uncomfortable. Unless of course it is an amazing pair of jeans that I will endure that pain for!
Pretty much I just need to get toned again. Not so much a weight issue with me. Just fighting the never-ending aging process and I am just so surprised at how much ground you lose when you take any kind of break. I remember the days when I could work out like 2 times a week and my muscles had good memory. Pretty much I have to work out like 5 times a week now to maintain what used to be effortless in my twenties and even early thirties. 36 sucks! :( I also did a little of my Belly, Butt and Thighs Boot Camp dvd..I think I will stick to running and my recumbent bike and playing in the waves! This is good though to shake things up a bit. I think you make many more gains if you keep your muscles guessing what is coming next! I think when it comes to actual aerobics, I need a class as opposed to a video just because of peer pressure and my competitiveness.
I used to do a cardio-workout video when my girls were babies. It was easier to just work out in the living room when they were taking their naps than to make time for a gym workout. I just don't remember it being this hard! With Zach, I got more serious about my running and stuck with that for many years, and definitely became a gym rat once I started working for the athletic department only because it was available onsite before or after work...I wasn't able to get home after a long day and say I am too tired to drive to a gym, because I worked AT the gym. The last 3 years, I definitely got into running again, which I blame my move to Rhode Island in ruining. The track here is like the only one for miles and miles and is greatly used. I really need to plan out a route around my neighborhood that I can use to settle into a rut. Ruts and routines are how I HAVE to run! I obsess about my pace time, in relation to where I am in my run, where I should be, if I am ahead of the game, losing ground, etc...it is very easy to do that if you run the same route over and over.
I do have to say, balancing in the huge waves uses muscles I didn't know I had. That is usually how I judge a good workout. How many muscles feel spent. I love that feeling.
I am going to go thru my closet today and really just toss out stuff that I have been hanging onto because I "might" wear it and get organized into things I definitely wear most often. Comfort counts in this closet razing. I am no longer hanging onto stuff that I wear for only a short time because it is uncomfortable. Unless of course it is an amazing pair of jeans that I will endure that pain for!
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
August 27, 2008
My childhood/high school friend lost her battle to cancer a little before 5 AM this morning. She leaves behind 3 girls, 10, 6, 5, and one son, 8. My heart is breaking for this little family, but I am so happy she is no longer suffering. Still, she had a wonderful 35 years, which is more than some people get in an entire life span not cut short by illness. She fought hard and refused to let doctors tell her how much time she had left after finding out she was in stage 4..that was like 3 years ago. I am convinced her life was lengthened because of this.
Unfortunately, things are so chaotic at work I won't be able to make a trip to Maine for the funeral. Honestly, if an immediate family member were to die in the next few days, I don't think I'd be able to make the trip. Two major players are on vacation and we were short staffed anyway. I picked up yet another overnight tonight...11 more hours of overtime added to my 48. I am officially off after 8 AM, but have to be at work 7 AM Friday morning. so less than 24 hours. Basically, I have had to work at least a little on every day off this past week. UGH!!!!!!! AND there is one staff member that simply refuses overtime. Flat out won't help anyone in a bind and the woman I am covering for is on her way to an emergency room. And the woman on the way to the emergency room is on her last chance at work. Administration has told her one more screw up or whatever and she is done. She is like 3 years away from retirement and I can't in good conscience not help her out. However, I am afraid this may be a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation because all the managers were told to watch overtime closely, having staff who are not close to overtime fill shifts first, and I am not convinced that every last person on the list was called...I don't really care because I will always take the overtime, but this could be the last nail in the coffin, so to speak, for this person if someone already looking for reasons to fire her, discovers all bases were not covered. I'm not sure that they weren't covered, I just have an inkling they weren't.
On top of all of that, Mitch texted me late in the day to let me know we have a soccer dinner obligation to attend at 6 PM. So I have raced home from work after working ALL day, taken a shower, gotten ready, and have to do this thing, and then come home and get my stuff for the overnight and head back to work. I am also working on Monday with P., and dropping him back off at 3 PM, to enjoy my "day off"....all 6 hours of it, to turn around and do the Monday overnight and work all day Tuesday. Am I burned out yet??? Eh...the extra money will be nice.
The girls both have eye doctor appointments on Thursday. I have to say, every doctor I have encountered in Rhode Island (including their office staff) has been most gracious and kind. In Maine, most receptionists make you feel like you are ruining their day by having to call for an appointment. You feel like telling them, "Excuse me, but you work for ME..and if you don't want to have a job, I suggest you keep being nasty!" AND then you feel like saying, "Ummm, you probably only have a high school diploma, so really you needn't be on such a high horse...you're a secretary!" Mind you, there is not a thing wrong with being a secretary, but the job description usually implies answering phones and making appointments so don't be put out when that is what you have to do!
Okay...Kathleen has told me and told me my tongue needs to be paralyzed!!! I'm just tired and overworked and need a full 24 hours OFF! Preferably all my days off. All three of them.
I am stressed!
Unfortunately, things are so chaotic at work I won't be able to make a trip to Maine for the funeral. Honestly, if an immediate family member were to die in the next few days, I don't think I'd be able to make the trip. Two major players are on vacation and we were short staffed anyway. I picked up yet another overnight tonight...11 more hours of overtime added to my 48. I am officially off after 8 AM, but have to be at work 7 AM Friday morning. so less than 24 hours. Basically, I have had to work at least a little on every day off this past week. UGH!!!!!!! AND there is one staff member that simply refuses overtime. Flat out won't help anyone in a bind and the woman I am covering for is on her way to an emergency room. And the woman on the way to the emergency room is on her last chance at work. Administration has told her one more screw up or whatever and she is done. She is like 3 years away from retirement and I can't in good conscience not help her out. However, I am afraid this may be a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation because all the managers were told to watch overtime closely, having staff who are not close to overtime fill shifts first, and I am not convinced that every last person on the list was called...I don't really care because I will always take the overtime, but this could be the last nail in the coffin, so to speak, for this person if someone already looking for reasons to fire her, discovers all bases were not covered. I'm not sure that they weren't covered, I just have an inkling they weren't.
On top of all of that, Mitch texted me late in the day to let me know we have a soccer dinner obligation to attend at 6 PM. So I have raced home from work after working ALL day, taken a shower, gotten ready, and have to do this thing, and then come home and get my stuff for the overnight and head back to work. I am also working on Monday with P., and dropping him back off at 3 PM, to enjoy my "day off"....all 6 hours of it, to turn around and do the Monday overnight and work all day Tuesday. Am I burned out yet??? Eh...the extra money will be nice.
The girls both have eye doctor appointments on Thursday. I have to say, every doctor I have encountered in Rhode Island (including their office staff) has been most gracious and kind. In Maine, most receptionists make you feel like you are ruining their day by having to call for an appointment. You feel like telling them, "Excuse me, but you work for ME..and if you don't want to have a job, I suggest you keep being nasty!" AND then you feel like saying, "Ummm, you probably only have a high school diploma, so really you needn't be on such a high horse...you're a secretary!" Mind you, there is not a thing wrong with being a secretary, but the job description usually implies answering phones and making appointments so don't be put out when that is what you have to do!
Okay...Kathleen has told me and told me my tongue needs to be paralyzed!!! I'm just tired and overworked and need a full 24 hours OFF! Preferably all my days off. All three of them.
I am stressed!
Monday, August 25, 2008
It Must Be a Monday!
UGH! Crappy afternoon!!!
So after I got offline, got showered up and had my coffee, while waiting before I had to leave to get Zach, I couldn't find my cell phone. ANYWHERE! I knew it was somewhere in the house because I used it here after we got back from the beach, so I knew I didn't leave it there. Still couldn't find it. I had to leave to get Zach without it. Zach ended up finding it in his gym bag while at football practice! Apparently, after using it yesterday, I threw it back into my purse which was on the couch, next to Zach's bag...my guess is it somehow lodged itself in there.
Then I had to drop off Hayley at her friend's house and the traffic was soooooooo slow today. There is no beach traffic really because it is cloudy, but today is the day everyone is deciding to drive the speed limit! Traffic was slow getting to the post office, things were slow at the bank, the grocery store wasn't busy for once, but my cashier decided to take the moment of my arrival to break open all of her change rolls.
After getting home, I dropped my brand new candle on the floor smashing the glass. Super!
So after I got offline, got showered up and had my coffee, while waiting before I had to leave to get Zach, I couldn't find my cell phone. ANYWHERE! I knew it was somewhere in the house because I used it here after we got back from the beach, so I knew I didn't leave it there. Still couldn't find it. I had to leave to get Zach without it. Zach ended up finding it in his gym bag while at football practice! Apparently, after using it yesterday, I threw it back into my purse which was on the couch, next to Zach's bag...my guess is it somehow lodged itself in there.
Then I had to drop off Hayley at her friend's house and the traffic was soooooooo slow today. There is no beach traffic really because it is cloudy, but today is the day everyone is deciding to drive the speed limit! Traffic was slow getting to the post office, things were slow at the bank, the grocery store wasn't busy for once, but my cashier decided to take the moment of my arrival to break open all of her change rolls.
After getting home, I dropped my brand new candle on the floor smashing the glass. Super!
August 25, 2008
I can't believe I haven't blogged since Thursday. Not really sure where the weekend went. I did work for 24 hours of it, but yesterday flew by. The kids and I went to the beach. The waves were huge and there was a high surf warning and a riptide warning, so you were only allowed to be in the water up to your waist. Even still, we got to see two rescues late in the afternoon. It really is such good exercise to stand in the powerful waves and try and keep your balance. Good for your abs and core muscles. Especially if you get down on your knees in a stand position and try and keep your balance. Good for the above muscles and the backs of your thighs. Plus the waves make it fun and you don't even feel like you are working out!
I need some time off, but will be enjoying the fruits of all this busy-ness soon with two big paychecks. I did SEVEN loads of laundry! But at least it is all done.
What else? I bought some new clothes. I found the cutest shorts at walmart (who knew right?). They are just all cotton athletic shorts, nothing fancy but so cute and they look hot on me, so I went back to get more colors as they were on the clearance rack for $3. Of course, the hot pink ones I wanted were only in extra large. But I wanted hot pink too, so I asked myself how much of a difference is there really between small and extra large? Ummmm, they fall to my ankles when I stand up. But they were on CLEARANCE!!! So I guess I have new jammies to wear to bed!
I was seriously going to get my nails done today. I still might, but really I think I want to just stay home. I haven't been here for weeks! On my days off, we have been going to the beach all day. By the time we get home, get dinner, get online for a minute, I am ready to head to my room to watch some tv. I can always do them tomorrow after work. Or Wednesday after work.
Work is actually getting better. I went from loving it, to it being okay, to not liking it, to it getting better again. When I was loving it, I worked in a lot of different places. Now I don't and this "rut" has me feeling kinda bored. But because the "rut" isn't a rut yet because the schedule is still new and won't be a real rut until things have really settled in, I find myself exhausted after just a 7 hour day. I realize that probably didn't make a whole lot of sense, but it did to me.
Mitch's grandmother and mother came down for a quick visit. They wanted to see the new house and came to visit me at work for a few minutes. It was good to see them.
I need to get the house swept. Sand is all thru it.
I need some time off, but will be enjoying the fruits of all this busy-ness soon with two big paychecks. I did SEVEN loads of laundry! But at least it is all done.
What else? I bought some new clothes. I found the cutest shorts at walmart (who knew right?). They are just all cotton athletic shorts, nothing fancy but so cute and they look hot on me, so I went back to get more colors as they were on the clearance rack for $3. Of course, the hot pink ones I wanted were only in extra large. But I wanted hot pink too, so I asked myself how much of a difference is there really between small and extra large? Ummmm, they fall to my ankles when I stand up. But they were on CLEARANCE!!! So I guess I have new jammies to wear to bed!
I was seriously going to get my nails done today. I still might, but really I think I want to just stay home. I haven't been here for weeks! On my days off, we have been going to the beach all day. By the time we get home, get dinner, get online for a minute, I am ready to head to my room to watch some tv. I can always do them tomorrow after work. Or Wednesday after work.
Work is actually getting better. I went from loving it, to it being okay, to not liking it, to it getting better again. When I was loving it, I worked in a lot of different places. Now I don't and this "rut" has me feeling kinda bored. But because the "rut" isn't a rut yet because the schedule is still new and won't be a real rut until things have really settled in, I find myself exhausted after just a 7 hour day. I realize that probably didn't make a whole lot of sense, but it did to me.
Mitch's grandmother and mother came down for a quick visit. They wanted to see the new house and came to visit me at work for a few minutes. It was good to see them.
I need to get the house swept. Sand is all thru it.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
August 21, 2008
I was up around 7 this morning. Slept pretty well I think. Nothing exciting on the internet this morning. Or in the the news really. I am brewing some coffee. That will get the girls up. We are going to go to the beach today to get in the last few days we can before they have to go back to school.
The kids go back to school on the 2nd. They are excited to see their friends and to wear their new school clothes. Zach has been seeing most of his friends all summer because he had football for most of it. The girls spent a little over a month in Maine and got to see their friends from back there but really have only seen Becca around here.
When it starts getting too cold for the beach on our days off, the kids and I want to visit my sister in CT and do some shopping there. We went school shopping last year with her and the kids had such a fun time. She only lives a little over an hour away. You'd think she lived on the moon! Anyway, she is pregnant with my nephew and I am so excited. I was excited about Gracie too, but this one is a bit different because Zach is the only boy in the family. My brothers and I and sister all had girls first. At 14, Zach is ready to share the limelight of not being the only boy! I am also hoping that because Grace is older now, she will want to do stuff with me. My niece Lexi was always with me when I was in Maine. Grace only sees me a few times a year and I am sure she would do fine with me especially in an emergency, but my sister and I weren't going to make her, you know? But she will be three and I am way cooler than her mother! My kids love love love my sister. She has spent more money on the three of them. She never went anywhere without picking up something for each of them. That isn't the only reason they love her, but they do know they will get spoiled when she is around!
I am working 24 hours on Saturday!!! I am excited actually. Mostly because 16 hours of it is all overtime! I am going to rent some movies for us and bring some games and make something yummy for dinner. I work only day-shifts now, so I don't get to do that kind of stuff anymore with them. I am hoping the girls want to come by for some of it. That is the best thing about this job. It is about making the lives of the people we support what you and I would call "normal." Which to me is including them in activities that are above and beyond the "job." So the kids coming over for dinner with Uncle P. and Aunt S. is something that would happen in all our lives. And Labor Day is my day off, but I was asked if I could work some or part of it and it is holiday pay, so I said Yes, if I could take P. with me. It was okay'd and he will be spending the day with us here. I kind of want to take R. too because he loves coming over to play games with the kids. We will have to see how everyones moods are that day and the weather and plan accordingly.
Anyway, my next two paychecks will be big. Like they were all winter. I was working crazy hours then...50-60 per week! I am glad the summer turned out like it did with me working little to no over-time. I requested that I just wanted to chill and work the hours I am supposed to and spend extra time with the family and enjoy the beach. But after Zach's football season, I definitely want to start picking up overtime again. The good news about this schedule that I have, assuming I don't pick up extra 2nd shifts, is that I am home every day after school and I know the kids grades last year reflected my working so much overtime. Also good news is that I am at 40 hours, so any extra shift is all overtime and that adds up quick, especially an overnight shift. My goal for this next 3-6 month period is to continue to be home everyday at 3 and help keep the kids on track with school work.
Okay, off to the beach!
The kids go back to school on the 2nd. They are excited to see their friends and to wear their new school clothes. Zach has been seeing most of his friends all summer because he had football for most of it. The girls spent a little over a month in Maine and got to see their friends from back there but really have only seen Becca around here.
When it starts getting too cold for the beach on our days off, the kids and I want to visit my sister in CT and do some shopping there. We went school shopping last year with her and the kids had such a fun time. She only lives a little over an hour away. You'd think she lived on the moon! Anyway, she is pregnant with my nephew and I am so excited. I was excited about Gracie too, but this one is a bit different because Zach is the only boy in the family. My brothers and I and sister all had girls first. At 14, Zach is ready to share the limelight of not being the only boy! I am also hoping that because Grace is older now, she will want to do stuff with me. My niece Lexi was always with me when I was in Maine. Grace only sees me a few times a year and I am sure she would do fine with me especially in an emergency, but my sister and I weren't going to make her, you know? But she will be three and I am way cooler than her mother! My kids love love love my sister. She has spent more money on the three of them. She never went anywhere without picking up something for each of them. That isn't the only reason they love her, but they do know they will get spoiled when she is around!
I am working 24 hours on Saturday!!! I am excited actually. Mostly because 16 hours of it is all overtime! I am going to rent some movies for us and bring some games and make something yummy for dinner. I work only day-shifts now, so I don't get to do that kind of stuff anymore with them. I am hoping the girls want to come by for some of it. That is the best thing about this job. It is about making the lives of the people we support what you and I would call "normal." Which to me is including them in activities that are above and beyond the "job." So the kids coming over for dinner with Uncle P. and Aunt S. is something that would happen in all our lives. And Labor Day is my day off, but I was asked if I could work some or part of it and it is holiday pay, so I said Yes, if I could take P. with me. It was okay'd and he will be spending the day with us here. I kind of want to take R. too because he loves coming over to play games with the kids. We will have to see how everyones moods are that day and the weather and plan accordingly.
Anyway, my next two paychecks will be big. Like they were all winter. I was working crazy hours then...50-60 per week! I am glad the summer turned out like it did with me working little to no over-time. I requested that I just wanted to chill and work the hours I am supposed to and spend extra time with the family and enjoy the beach. But after Zach's football season, I definitely want to start picking up overtime again. The good news about this schedule that I have, assuming I don't pick up extra 2nd shifts, is that I am home every day after school and I know the kids grades last year reflected my working so much overtime. Also good news is that I am at 40 hours, so any extra shift is all overtime and that adds up quick, especially an overnight shift. My goal for this next 3-6 month period is to continue to be home everyday at 3 and help keep the kids on track with school work.
Okay, off to the beach!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
It is Freaking Cold This Morning!!!
It is beautiful sun-wise and will warm up to eighties today but man, at a quarter till 8 this morning it isn't even 60 yet! Brrrrrr!!! I could smell fall in the air last night. It might have just been wishful thinking of course. My kids still have like 2 weeks left of summer before school starts. At least the humidity seems to be waning. And with less humidity, my jeans are sliding right on. Got kinda worried when I would get them to my thighs and be like, Oh Gosh! I just can't DO this!
Well, I gotta get to work. TTFN
Well, I gotta get to work. TTFN
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Bloatation!!!
Ugh! That is how I feel after having seconds of dinner tonight.
I have some pics to post of my baby boy in his high school football uniform. He looks soooo cute! I can't believe he is going to high school in just a few weeks! He is growing up so fast!
I have some pics to post of my baby boy in his high school football uniform. He looks soooo cute! I can't believe he is going to high school in just a few weeks! He is growing up so fast!
Monday, August 18, 2008
Today
Today was a very fun day. We ended up going to Scarborough North today instead of Town Beach...still 5 minutes away, just in the other direction. The waves got pretty big today and a couple of them got me good! I have a skinned knee from one and lost my bottoms in another but still it was a GREAT time! We got there kinda early so in the video it didn't look too busy. About an hour after that, it was busy but there was plenty of room for everyone. At Town Beach, it is literally towel to towel or blanket to blanket. Think of the movie Summer Rental when John Candy has to find his family and he is kicking sand on everyone and dripping water from the cooler on people.
The kids and I played in the waves the whole day. Needless to say, we're all a bit toasty because of the sun reflecting on the water.
Now we're home. Mitch is changing a filter on the Suburban and we just ordered and had delivered pizza.
Zach's football coach called and wants Zach at practice tomorrow morning by 7:30 AM so he can get his uniform and gear. I think Mitch will be taking him because he has to leave for work at that time anyway and I don't have to be at work until 8.
I have to get in the shower. I took time to make sure I looked good for the beach today, thinking I wouldn't get my hair wet...two seconds in the water and a huge wave overtook me! So much for looking good!
The kids and I played in the waves the whole day. Needless to say, we're all a bit toasty because of the sun reflecting on the water.
Now we're home. Mitch is changing a filter on the Suburban and we just ordered and had delivered pizza.
Zach's football coach called and wants Zach at practice tomorrow morning by 7:30 AM so he can get his uniform and gear. I think Mitch will be taking him because he has to leave for work at that time anyway and I don't have to be at work until 8.
I have to get in the shower. I took time to make sure I looked good for the beach today, thinking I wouldn't get my hair wet...two seconds in the water and a huge wave overtook me! So much for looking good!
August 18, 2008
Okay, so I didn't save so much money yesterday! There were clearance sales everywhere after the beach! Today we're going to try and do the Town Beach thing. I will bring my video camera and you will see why we don't frequent it very often even tho it is only 5 minutes away.
We're running late today. It is already 9 AM. But today will probably be an even longer day because there is more stuff to do and to walk around to. We have to get a move on. We haven't even gotten our lunches yet.
TTFN!!!
We're running late today. It is already 9 AM. But today will probably be an even longer day because there is more stuff to do and to walk around to. We have to get a move on. We haven't even gotten our lunches yet.
TTFN!!!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
August 17, 2008
Today is my long-awaited beach day! There are only supposed to be sunny skies and I don't have to squeeze in a meeting at work or even go to work. Tomorrow is supposed to be the same. I am going to remember my camera and my Flip for the day. The good news about beach days is my inability to go shopping while at the beach, therefore saving money.
It isn't even 7 AM. I think I was out last night before 9PM so that must explain why I am awake. I was planning on watching Blade Trinity, but fell asleep watching Blade II. I will get nice and tired today being in the sun and playing in the waves.
It isn't even 7 AM. I think I was out last night before 9PM so that must explain why I am awake. I was planning on watching Blade Trinity, but fell asleep watching Blade II. I will get nice and tired today being in the sun and playing in the waves.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
August 15, 2008
The weather yesterday did indeed hold off like I asked. Kayla and I spent three hours at the beach. We then went to the meeting and after went to Warwick to do some shopping.
Work was pretty good today. Busy like I like it. Went by fast. Traffic kinda sucked on the drive back from Newport.
Tomorrow after work is Providence Place I think! Yay!
Work was pretty good today. Busy like I like it. Went by fast. Traffic kinda sucked on the drive back from Newport.
Tomorrow after work is Providence Place I think! Yay!
Thursday, August 14, 2008
August 14, 2008
My hope for today is that the expected thundershower holds off until early evening or later. I really want to enjoy my day off today. A week from tomorrow marks the anniversary of our first year here.
I have a stupid meeting at work today for two hours. At 3:30 PM. On my regularly scheduled day off. :( YUCK!!!
Things are pretty boring today. That is mostly my own doing. I have no motivation right now to get up off the couch and jump into the shower. I don't think my coffee has kicked in yet.
I have lots of ideas of stuff to do today, I just don't know that I have the ambition to see any of those ideas happen. If the sun stays out, I am headed to the beach. The problem is that Kayla and I would be leaving the beach to head right to the meeting. I might just have to lay in the sun around here. Other thoughts are to just chill here today, go to the meeting, and then either go shopping in Newport or Warwick. I will be at the beach all day Sunday and Monday anyway probably. I guess I will let the weather decide for me as far as Newport and Warwick go. Shopping in Newport is only fun when it isn't raining because there is a lot of outside walking involved.
I might just end up doing nothing. That is how I am feeling!
I have a stupid meeting at work today for two hours. At 3:30 PM. On my regularly scheduled day off. :( YUCK!!!
Things are pretty boring today. That is mostly my own doing. I have no motivation right now to get up off the couch and jump into the shower. I don't think my coffee has kicked in yet.
I have lots of ideas of stuff to do today, I just don't know that I have the ambition to see any of those ideas happen. If the sun stays out, I am headed to the beach. The problem is that Kayla and I would be leaving the beach to head right to the meeting. I might just have to lay in the sun around here. Other thoughts are to just chill here today, go to the meeting, and then either go shopping in Newport or Warwick. I will be at the beach all day Sunday and Monday anyway probably. I guess I will let the weather decide for me as far as Newport and Warwick go. Shopping in Newport is only fun when it isn't raining because there is a lot of outside walking involved.
I might just end up doing nothing. That is how I am feeling!
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Chilled
I have felt chilly all day. Mostly sunny today although right now I am hearing some thunder. COOL! Love love love thunderstorms!
It is just Kayla and I for supper tonight. Hayley is spending the night at Becca's and Zach is still in Maine with family. Mitch is at work until 8 tonight. Soooo, Kay and I are having pulled pork sandwiches with some mozzarella cheese and some fries. I bought the cutest lunch bag for work! It is Thermos brand, pink and white camo with some sparkle and a silver heart that says Love. So so cute!
After dinner, I am going to take a long hot bath and put some jammies on and hop into bed. I have some shows coming on tonight and I want to be ready for the by 8 PM.
It is just Kayla and I for supper tonight. Hayley is spending the night at Becca's and Zach is still in Maine with family. Mitch is at work until 8 tonight. Soooo, Kay and I are having pulled pork sandwiches with some mozzarella cheese and some fries. I bought the cutest lunch bag for work! It is Thermos brand, pink and white camo with some sparkle and a silver heart that says Love. So so cute!
After dinner, I am going to take a long hot bath and put some jammies on and hop into bed. I have some shows coming on tonight and I want to be ready for the by 8 PM.
Monday, August 11, 2008
August 11, 2008
Still feeling kinda blah! Mitch and I spent a nice day at the beach yesterday. It was just such a wonderfully nice time, I never wanted it to end. Last night, we went to the driving range and I practiced with my new clubs. I think we (I) ended up hitting like 2 large buckets of balls.
Right now he is picking up one of the new soccer players from the airport. The newbie is from Scotland and John really wanted Mitch to be the one to meet him at the airport. Okay, I guess, except that it is cutting into MY time...as in my day off time. We are pretty stingy with our time together. I am not looking forward to the start of the soccer season, but at least we know this year what we've gotten ourselves into and can make the most of our time together and not spend that time bitching at each other because we aren't spending anytime together. I am a bit excited for the start of the season, only because the first two months of games are a lot of fun and the weather is still warm at night. And really the season ends mid-November and then he's all mine again.
Mitch's brother and father were here for a quick visit. We were all supposed to play in a golf tournament but it got called off due to impending thundershowers. Sooooo, we had a nice brunch at Friendly's and enjoyed ourselves anyway.
I have to work the next two days. I desperately need to take some time off but it isn't looking good anytime soon because not next weekend, but the Saturday after that, I picked up a 24 hour shift. That would be 24 hours of overtime. I figured with school starting after Labor Day I could use the extra money. The girls are currently looking for jobs. They are both extremely excited about that! Maybe I will take a few days off in September. I could take a paid day off every week for almost two months straight. That would give me 4 days off a week.
Right now he is picking up one of the new soccer players from the airport. The newbie is from Scotland and John really wanted Mitch to be the one to meet him at the airport. Okay, I guess, except that it is cutting into MY time...as in my day off time. We are pretty stingy with our time together. I am not looking forward to the start of the soccer season, but at least we know this year what we've gotten ourselves into and can make the most of our time together and not spend that time bitching at each other because we aren't spending anytime together. I am a bit excited for the start of the season, only because the first two months of games are a lot of fun and the weather is still warm at night. And really the season ends mid-November and then he's all mine again.
Mitch's brother and father were here for a quick visit. We were all supposed to play in a golf tournament but it got called off due to impending thundershowers. Sooooo, we had a nice brunch at Friendly's and enjoyed ourselves anyway.
I have to work the next two days. I desperately need to take some time off but it isn't looking good anytime soon because not next weekend, but the Saturday after that, I picked up a 24 hour shift. That would be 24 hours of overtime. I figured with school starting after Labor Day I could use the extra money. The girls are currently looking for jobs. They are both extremely excited about that! Maybe I will take a few days off in September. I could take a paid day off every week for almost two months straight. That would give me 4 days off a week.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Sunny Days...
Nothing sucks more than a whole summer of beautiful sunny weather and no time to enjoy it. UGH! I want to retire!
I found out yesterday that my company offers 3 months paid maternity leave! Cool. After that, I would be part-time or fill-in anyway. I think I will always keep this job (on some level at least) and get serious about finishing my master's.
RIght now, my first thought is my cute adorable puggle-boy! Except I keep browsing the dogs at the Hartford Animal Shelter. They only have 10 days to live before getting put to sleep. Most are already house-trained. They'd be good companions to Sierra and they only cost $5. I just don't want to let go of my puggle dream. I am having a complete mental crisis about all of this because I know what the RIGHT thing to do is. But how can you say no to a sweet little puggle face? It is like he is saying, "Pick me, Mommy, pick me!" Just a reminder of how cute this face is...
I found out yesterday that my company offers 3 months paid maternity leave! Cool. After that, I would be part-time or fill-in anyway. I think I will always keep this job (on some level at least) and get serious about finishing my master's.
RIght now, my first thought is my cute adorable puggle-boy! Except I keep browsing the dogs at the Hartford Animal Shelter. They only have 10 days to live before getting put to sleep. Most are already house-trained. They'd be good companions to Sierra and they only cost $5. I just don't want to let go of my puggle dream. I am having a complete mental crisis about all of this because I know what the RIGHT thing to do is. But how can you say no to a sweet little puggle face? It is like he is saying, "Pick me, Mommy, pick me!" Just a reminder of how cute this face is...
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Blah
I got my room finished. Yay me! Got most of my books put away. Seems like even though most of the house has been unpacked for awhile, I will still find something that needs a place. Things are slowly coming together. I am watching a show...Vegas I think...and Tom Selleck is guest starring on it, or maybe he's a newer character...I don't watch it enough to know...anyway...MAN he really looks like Jim. Same dimples. Same goatee.
Now I have to jump in the shower. Get that part of my day over.
Now I have to jump in the shower. Get that part of my day over.
August 7, 2008
SO this is the plan for today. I am going to take full and complete advantage of the lack of sun and the fact that it isn't extremely hot AND finish unpacking my room! I am also going to take a shower and clean my house. I may even read a little.
This summer has kind of been a wash. I will be glad when it is over and it is fall. My most favorite and most active season. Full of hikes and nature. This beach traffic is killing me! The girls and I did enjoy a nice day at the beach on Monday. Pathetic that we drive OUT of our beach town to go to a semi-private beach that out-of-staters and tourists either don't know about or don't bother to hit. It actually works out well because all the traffic is headed into town when we're leaving it and they are all headed out while we're headed back. We do have a private beach right where we are, and it is only open to people that live right where we do. You have to live in this little area of suburbia to gain access to the beach but I have been feeling less than social. Kind of hard to live a life of anonymity once the neighbors start getting to know you. Not sure why I am feeling like this lately, but I just do. No rat races to participate in, no keeping up with the Joneses. Just kind of settling into our own groove in the new house before we add in the desperate housewives effect. I really feel like we've moved into the uber-social joiner neighborhood. They have an annual 4th of July parade. Mind you, this isn't for the town, just our little housing development. A neighborhood yard sale once a year, a neighborhood day, with a group picnic down at the beach. It is kind of like a trailer park with no trailers. Well let me be their tornado!
I'm just in a funk right now. A bitchy anti-social funk. I don't want to make friends. I don't want to get together. I don't want your darn brownies. I don't want to join join join! I would name the neighborhood and I think I may have in a previous post but I am too lazy to look, but the 'hood even has its own website and all I need is for them to find out I blog! I feel like I am the lady that moves into Stepford. This hood has a secret. It all seems a little too incestuous to me.
This summer has kind of been a wash. I will be glad when it is over and it is fall. My most favorite and most active season. Full of hikes and nature. This beach traffic is killing me! The girls and I did enjoy a nice day at the beach on Monday. Pathetic that we drive OUT of our beach town to go to a semi-private beach that out-of-staters and tourists either don't know about or don't bother to hit. It actually works out well because all the traffic is headed into town when we're leaving it and they are all headed out while we're headed back. We do have a private beach right where we are, and it is only open to people that live right where we do. You have to live in this little area of suburbia to gain access to the beach but I have been feeling less than social. Kind of hard to live a life of anonymity once the neighbors start getting to know you. Not sure why I am feeling like this lately, but I just do. No rat races to participate in, no keeping up with the Joneses. Just kind of settling into our own groove in the new house before we add in the desperate housewives effect. I really feel like we've moved into the uber-social joiner neighborhood. They have an annual 4th of July parade. Mind you, this isn't for the town, just our little housing development. A neighborhood yard sale once a year, a neighborhood day, with a group picnic down at the beach. It is kind of like a trailer park with no trailers. Well let me be their tornado!
I'm just in a funk right now. A bitchy anti-social funk. I don't want to make friends. I don't want to get together. I don't want your darn brownies. I don't want to join join join! I would name the neighborhood and I think I may have in a previous post but I am too lazy to look, but the 'hood even has its own website and all I need is for them to find out I blog! I feel like I am the lady that moves into Stepford. This hood has a secret. It all seems a little too incestuous to me.
Monday, August 04, 2008
August 3, 2008
I can't believe it is actually Monday already. What a pain. I spent my day off yesterday with Mitch picking up the girls in Maine and bringing them home. We didn't get back last night till 9:30-10 PM. I promptly went to bed. I have had a yucky headache. It is going on day 2. It was beautiful and sunny here yesterday, but I went to where it was pouring rain. :( It is nice here today, so hopefully I will make the best of it. The girls are back so now I will actually have someone to go to the beach with. They have been gone for a whole month. I think that was the longest I have ever been away from them in the last 18 years.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
July 31, 2008
It is like totally raining outside. July is almost over. I really don't ever like August. Not sure why. A combination of knowing summer is almost over and another winter is approaching and the incredibly hot and muggy air getting me grumpy probably. My anxiety typically is at its high in August. However, I LOVE fall. It is my favorite season. Especially around here. As you may recall, we were still going to the beach in November. I love fall because of the cool night time air for sleeping and because I can wear jeans again! And all my clothes that I haven't been able to wear all summer.
Let's see if there is anything to blog about...I have to go grocery and household shopping today. It is pouring outside. This will at least cancel our outside use water ban, not that I noticed anyone obeying said water ban. Do the police really drive around town to see whose water sprinklers are coming on at 2 AM?
Shark WEEK! Love love love it. I wait all year for it. Now it is almost over.
So this AM, I guess I will drop Zach off, run to the post office, enjoy absolutely NO beach traffic (thank you rain), and try to get my grocery shopping done before it gets busier.
This is officially the most boring post ever, I think.
Let's see if there is anything to blog about...I have to go grocery and household shopping today. It is pouring outside. This will at least cancel our outside use water ban, not that I noticed anyone obeying said water ban. Do the police really drive around town to see whose water sprinklers are coming on at 2 AM?
Shark WEEK! Love love love it. I wait all year for it. Now it is almost over.
So this AM, I guess I will drop Zach off, run to the post office, enjoy absolutely NO beach traffic (thank you rain), and try to get my grocery shopping done before it gets busier.
This is officially the most boring post ever, I think.
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