I'm Still Standing

I got my hair cut a few days ago. None of the length cut, just about two inches off of my layers. I really didn't like how the girl did it (she is not my regular stylist) but today, after washing and drying and curling it, I think I like it! I am still going to give it about 2 weeks to see if my layers start blending in on their own, if not, I'll go back and have that done. It doesn't look bad, just a little wavier than I am used to. It is more Daisy Duke aka Jessica Simpson than I wanted. But on my way out of Walmart last night, a truck slowed down beside me and the guy was like HI, so I said HI, then he said "I like your hair", so I said "Thank you." Then he said bye and I said bye. So I guess I can live with the hair cut!

Another beautiful day in the neighborhood! I guess the weather will be changing for the worse tomorrow and this weekend. That is okay, though. I need an excuse to stay home and inside to do some spring cleaning. Spring clean-up will be soon so I want to get all broken and junky items out of the house and by the curb in preparation for that day. I am going to do a massive throwawayathon because when I move, I want to be as light as possible. As it is, I have accumulated enough furniture and household items to fill this 4 bedroom house. I remember when we moved into this place 10 years ago and I was thinking, Gosh, how will I ever fill this place...with three tiny bodies running around and just Mike and I, the place seemed big. Now, with 4 teenage bodies around and Barb and myself, the dog and the cats, the place is cramped. Oh well, such is life, I guess. They'll all be gone before I know it and it'll just be me. I'll be missing the coziness of it all!

I bought the Jesus Christ Superstar soundtrack last night. It was a bigtime Broadway show when I was a kid. A great soundtrack. My mother had the vinyl version when I was growing up. I've been in the mood to listen to old time music lately. My mother loved Neil Diamond, Barry Manilow, Captain and Tenille, Ronnie Milsap, The Mamas and the Papas, etc...Sadly, I have my own collection of those CDs now. You knew it was a Saturday when my mother would have some Neil Diamond blaring on the stereo and you could smell Lemon Fresh Pledge, because that meant she was cleaning the house. I used to clean my room to ACDC Back in Black...I still clean my house to ACDC...sometimes Neil Diamond.

So 5 out of 6 teachers have bronchitis/pneumonia at work. I am the only one still virus-free!!! Knock on wood. Hand sanitizer is my saving grace.

I bought a new cordless phone last night. It is a Motorola, with caller id and call waiting caller id! I was tired of not having a caller id on my other two cordless phones, and my caller id box has been crapping out lately, so I said SCREW it...I am buying a new phone. I've never used Motorola except for cell phone usage. It has a handy-dandy little belt clip so I can bring the phone with me all thru the house when I am cleaning.

So Nice!!!

It was so nice outside today. 52-plus degrees out. I went tanning in the Viper capsule today. I got out early because my skin felt very hot after just 5 or 6 minutes. I think you're only allowed in there for 10 minutes max. 8 bucks it cost to use that thing. Aside from that, no real exciting news to report since my last blog.

It is 5 o'clock Somewhere

I didn't get anything really done today that I had wanted to do. Just one of those days. I woke up at 5 and ended up falling back to sleep around 7 and then slept until almost 10. Now I have one of those hangover feelings. Should make work interesting. Everyone there is sick. I am the only healthy one right now, but that is because I wash my hands incessantly.

I saw Charlie at the mall Monday night, while I was there getting my hair cut. It was good to see him. He always makes me laugh. He scored very well on his LSATs. I am very proud of him. Way to go, Charlie!!! We're gonna hang out soon. He's moving to southern Maine too, so I'll have lots of friends. Lynette wants to go to USM for her grad work and Jon York and his wife are already down there. Plus, I have three uncles and two aunts down there, and my cousins, of course. Melanie and Sean are expecting their baby. They are living on Forest Ave in Portland. I should be seeing everyone on the day the kids and I come back from vacation. My grandmother is having her 75th birthday extravaganza so the kids and I have to head back from V-Beach a day earlier.

The weather today is beautiful. I wish my mood matched. I am just feeling overwhelmed right about now. I have a list of things I need to get done and that just makes me want to procrastinate all the more. These weeks are flying by. Good because vacation is coming sooner, but bad because I am running out of weeks to get a job, relocate, etc. Before you know it, fall will be here again!

Brian was in a jerky mood on the phone last night. He gets that way when he misses me, but sometimes it gets old. I hope he is in a happier mood tonight. It seems to be harder for him to hide his depression from me now. I don't know if that is a good thing. I guess it is a good thing that he trusts me enough to just be himself and not worry about having to always be happy to impress me or to keep me around, but on the other hand, I am a mostly upbeat person and his dark moods can definitely bring me down really fast. I mean, we've all felt stuck at times and just can't seem to get out of our own way, and that is where he is right now. I understand this and my love for him supercedes all else, but it will be good when this passes, though. Some people are sponge-like and can suck my good moods right out of me. My moods seem to be strictly hormonal. Once a month, things seem really bleak and dark for me and I cry more easily.

The kids have a 1/2 day of school today. I have to work until 5:30. I can't believe tomorrow is Thursday already!!! I'm not sure if Brian is coming down Saturday or not. If the weather stays like this, maybe he'll want to bring the bike down! :) He is coming down next weekend, barring all major snowstorms, and it is unlikely we'll spend three weekends together in a row.

Current Mood: fuzzy brained
Current Music: Edge of Seventeen Stevie Nicks

Bailey and Jenn

Bailey and Jenn
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Bailey was pretending to sleep but her smile, which broke into giggles, kept giving her away.

My Motorcycle Man

My Motorcycle Man
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Sitting at the Denny's where we first met at "Our" table. He had no idea that I had saved the piece of paper he had written his phone number and email address on until I slid it over to him. And he thought he was going to surprise me by remembering what table we had been sitting at, and requesting to the waitress that we sit at that particular table.

My Weekend

Brian came down Friday night. We went to the movies and saw The Pacifier. We both agreed that it was very predictable, but okay. It was nice just to cuddle at the theater. Saturday, we went motorcycle shopping 11-1, then we went to the boat show, then Sam's club, then Home Depot, THEN at the last minute we decided to go to Portland and catch the 7:30 show at The Comedy Connection. After that, we went to dinner at The Wok In, and drove back to the hotel in Bangor for the night. All and all, a great weekend. I was happy to spend the holiday together. On the drive home from Portland, I was cuddled up next to him, sleeping, but I awakened briefly, though he thought I was still asleep, and the song "I Could Love You like That" by John Michael Montgomery came on the radio and he sang it to me. So sweet!

Today, Shannon, Barb and I went to the movies. Brian headed home around 11. We saw The Ring 2. Okay. Not scary, but it was nice to get the background story on Samara. We went to Bull Moose Music after. The place was PACKED!!! I bought 3 new cd's. Lifehouse's brand new cd, Stevie Nicks Belladonna, and an old Fleetwood Mac album. After that, we ate supper at The Olive Garden and are just now getting home.

I'm just gonna sit back and relax and wait for my kids to get home. They are spending Easter with my mother. I wasn't in the mood to do the big family thing today, but my mother and kids were, so they are. Brian is supposed to be down this Saturday and then the weekend after, he is going to be in Portland and mentioned stopping in and picking me up. I could definitely use an entire weekend in Portland. The weekend after that, I'm headed to Virginia.

Current Mood: Tired
Current Music: my new cd's

Happy Easter!!!

The kids have no school today. It is an in-service, but it gives the kids a three day weekend for Easter. Brian is coming down this weekend. I'm glad, not just because I get to snuggle with him all day tomorrow, but because the holidays are very sad for him when he spends them alone. I think we're going to the movies tomorrow night.

Zach and I went to Ampersand's for my latte and his strawberry steamer and I mentioned I had to run to the Dollar Tree to buy some Easter presents for my preschoolers. He started to cry and I was like, what is your problem. "So just because I'm big [he is 10] means I don't care about Easter anymore?"

What it means is that instead of baskets, the kids will get a storage tote filled with video games, cd's, movies, the traditional Easter candy, new clothes, etc. I didn't tell him though about the stuff I've gotten, so I'll get him a cheap little Easter basket from the store and on Sunday, while he is playing with that, the girls will have their stuff. I'll give him his stuff after. Then we'll go to church and spend the day at my mom's so I can get MY Easter basket! :)

Just My Luck

So I stay on the phone with Brian last night until the late evening hours (no complaints) thinking, no big deal, I don't have to work until 1 PM tomorrow...Nay, nay...Jessy called 7:30 AM this morning to see if I could be in by 10:30. Carey has pneumonia and acute sinusitis...similar to what I had back in November or December. She'll be out tomorrow too and I will go into work an hour early. Tomorrow is Friday. Tomorrow is Katie's last day. Tomorrow is our Easter party. Tomorrow is Katie's going away party.


Current Mood: exhausted

Current Music: Since U Been Gone
Kelly Clarkson

GUESS WHAT???

There is a rumor, I heard it on the radio today, that after the Eagles finish tourning this spring, Don Henley will be touring this summer with STEVIE NICKS! Please, please, please let this be true. And please let it be somewhere on the east coast.
I still haven't fully recovered missing out on Fleetwood Mac's farewell tour.

Day 6 of Tanning

Day 6 of Tanning
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Day 6...getting ready for VA Beach

Day 6...getting ready for VA Beach
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Can't wait until 4/16/05!!!

Very Cool!!!

I went into work and Jessy asked if I wanted to take the rest of the day off...Hell yeah!!!

A BEAUTIFUL DAY OUTSIDE!!! I love spring! I love summer!

Current Mood: Elated
Current Music: Godsword

Mondays

Typical Monday. Got to work. It went pretty well. Drove home. Realized I left purse at work. Drove back to work. Got purse and drove home. Walked in the door and was told my mother picked up my children and to pick them up there when I got home. Had to drive almost all the way back to work in BANGOR, as my mother lives about 1 minute from my place of employment, to get my children and now I am finally home.

Current Mood: My head is KILLING me and I am cranky.
Current Music: Jeremy Camp

Almost 5 Years

I never thought almost 5 years would go by and I wouldn't see one of my parents. In five years, my two nieces have been born. Alexis will be 4 in May and Gabrielle turned 1 in December. My sister got married. The last time my dad saw my kids, Kayla was 11, Hayley was 10, and Zach was 6. With the exception of their faces, they'd be almost unrecognizible to him. Kayla is taller than me. Hayley is almost as tall as me and Zach is just 5 feet finally. In 5 years, I've gotten ONE phone call from him.

Whining

If anyone thinks I whine in my blog, I have something to say to you. This is MY blog. Don't read the fucking thing. I don't think I whine more than anyone else and I certainly take care of my own life and keep my personal problems to myself, with the exception of my blog, but please refer to the above.

Anyway, that wasn't directed at anyone in general, just a disclaimer.

Going to get my latte. Going tanning. (Sorry about the miscommunication yesterday Eric.) Going to work. Going to bed.
In two weeks, Jade is going to Florida, so I'll be covering for her at work. 10:30-5:30 M-F...BUT shortly after that, I'll be going on my vacation!!!

Boring, Boring, Boring

Today has been even more boring than yesterday, if y'all can believe that!!!

Let's see...today, I went tanning, grocery shopping, watched 3 movies, got my latte.
I'm going to church tonight because I talked myself out of going this morning, but I've been up since 6:30 AM nonetheless.

Wetass Chronicles

Wetass Chronicles...I LOVE this blog! It just cracks me up. I signed up for the free bumper sticker.

I can't wait for my vacation.

I am so bored right now. The kids and I bought 8 movies this weekend. I am on movie number 5. Tomorrow morning is church at 8:30 AM. I feel asleep at 1 this morning and woke up at 6:30 AM...I repeat A.M.!!! So today I feel terribly hung over. I didn't even have anything to drink. I took the kids to supper at Governor's and bought the movies and came home and watched some. Got me to thinking that when I do get a hangover, it is probably not so much because of the alcohol, as it is my staying up until 3-4 in the morning. I'm chugging Red Bull right now, so hopefully that helps. It was just one of those days that you stay in bed all day, reading the paper, drinking a latte, watching movies...but my body hurts now! I had to get up and get moving around. Went to Shop and Save and Irving. Gonna pick up the living room and make my bed. Then I'll go back to bed and watch more movies. Maybe I'll read a little. I have a ton of books that I've bought or been loaned, over the last few months from Goodwill, Bette's Bookstore, and Border's...among the titles are Book 2-7 of the 12 Left Behind books, Wicked, The Da Vinci Code, Icy Sparks, 12 Times Blessed, plus a ton more that I am too tired to think of to list...

I MISS BRIAN!!!


Current Mood: Blah
Current Movie: White Chicks

Virginia Beach Here We Come!!!

I've started tanning, got the hotel lined up, got the rental car all set...I am so psyched for this vacation! April 15th-25th, the kids and I'll be in Virginia and Washington D.C. We are taking Barb and Shannon...why? Because they are a lot of fun and because Barb used to live in the area, so we can take many more day trips than last year. Hopefully I don't get food poisoning again and lose 48 hours of the trip. I would have lost more time, but I forced myself to brave D.C. once I could stand again. I felt like I was going to pass out that whole day and was queasy on the Metro, but I got thru it!

Hopefully, since Kayla and Shannon are 15 and 17 respectively, Barb and I will get to a few clubs to do some drinking. But honestly, just being on a beach, without snow anywhere in sight sounds like all the vacation I need.

Current Mood: EXCITED!!! duh!

Current Music: Lime in de Coconut

Friday At Last

This weather has been beautiful. Makes up for a busy work week. I've been taking the kids outside as much as possible at work.

Tomorrow is the third Saturday of the month, so that means BOWLING with Jim and Joyce and others from church. I don't know if I am going to go. I can tolerate them at church, at the grocery store, etc. If I spend any large amounts of time with Jim, he and I are in the computer lab. I haven't spent large amounts of time with them when they are being "them". I know Jim told her about our past and when it is just he and I, things are normal, but I always feel like I can't act as friendly with him when we're around others, like I can when it is just us. I know he is the same way. At church, he always says hi to me, but it is usually Joyce and I that talk. He just stands there uncomfortably, shifting his weight from one foot to the next. So one would think we should just avoid each other. We can't. We've tried. I tell him everything and he tells me everything, even stuff he should probably be telling her now, but we've confided in each other for so long, it is hard to break that habit. We certainly do not communicate as much as we used to, out of respect for Joyce, but a month will go by and we haven't had a good talk, and he'll email me and ask to see me, so I go into his office and usually come out an hour later feeling so much better. I usually end up crying because he'll ask a question about Brian or whoever. He thinks I should forget about Brian. Then again, any man I date lately isn't good enough for me. He and Joyce have taken to fix my love life, hence the BOWLING tomorrow 5-7. And I love Joyce. She is a wonderful woman and is much better suited for him I think, then I would have been. In a weird way though, it is kind of like Jim pushes us into situations that force us to communicate publicly so he can prove to himself or to Joyce that his feelings for me weren't real, or at least are over. For me, those feelings were over the minute Brian gave me our first kiss. Even still, it can be hard seeing a former lover canoodling with his present wife.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!

Next year, St. Patty's is on a Friday! :) Drinking on a Thursday night just doesn't work for me...and I am definitely Irish...I'm also equally French, hence the last name De Orsey. My mother is a McGlinchey. My grandmother is a Ouellette.

Anyway, I started tanning again! YAY! Before I hear one word about the bad effects of tanning on the aging process...do not forget I am almost 33. I certainly do not look almost 33 and I've been tanning at least 3 months out of every year since I was 16. My skin never burns, thanks to my French ancestors, who have beautifully dark skin, dark hair and dark eyes. I am not so dark and I have blue eyes and fair to medium skin, but I never burn and I have very few body marks (little to no moles, I only freckle on my upper arms slightly, I always wear sunscreen on my face, even in winter, and use Estee Lauder's Sunless face tanner). Let me tell you how relaxing and energizing 20 minutes in a sunbed is.

I went to Border's last night ( sorry Shelly!!!). Shelly works at the infamous Bett's Bookstore in Bangor and I try to frequent it as much as possible, but the store hours are tough for my schedule...Border's is open until 10! Bought some good books and it got me to thinking just how much I spend on BOOKS! :) I really need to renew my library card. There are just some books I HAVE to have though, to touch and smell and look at. I love new books and I love revisiting my old books. I have one that my aunt gave me when I was 11 and her friend gave it to her when she was 11ish. It is Judy Blume's Are You there God, it is Me Margaret. I re-read it every year. I can finish it in just a few hours. The pages are all yellowed and the cover is long gone now. On page 96, there is the stain where I discovered a spider and in my horror, I squashed it, without realizing what I was doing until after the fact. My girls own all of Judy Blume's books and love her dearly. She also has the CUTEST little beach (two or three room) cottage-like place where she writes. There are pictures of it on her website. My dream writing worksite is in a big finished attic. Little window at the top, walls lined with built-in bookshelves. Big desk with my laptop, all my Gone with the Wind collection, pictures of the kids, cozy places to curl up in and to read and write the days away.